I, Write

“Just write every day of your life. Read intensely. Then see what happens. Most of my friends who are put on that diet have very pleasant careers.”

—Ray Bradbury, WD

Why is it that most people write? I read somewhere once that some people write just to write. They see it as a career or a way to gain money, so they pursue it. But I’ve found something about writing that I can’t compare to any of that. For me writing is at times a way for me to escape But more so it is a way for me to release and share my thoughts. 

Every experience I’ve faced in life now turns to stories and even characters who face the same situations. It all in turn transforms into worlds ready to show people ways to get through things. Even if it is not a story per say I manage to incorporate a way to motivate or encourage people, even if it is just a quote or an article. 

I seem to write now to help people. Before I would think that writing was easy, sure the words flow naturally at times, but there are days where you just can’t find the words coming out of your mind or heart. I also would think that I could simply just write whatever I wanted. I will be honest, I haven’t taken any writing classes. I would love to take the proper classes but I also know that just writing at times is good too. I may not know how to properly edit any of my works but I know that writing is a passion now. 

I may or may not seem a career in the future as a writer. I am currently writing a story that will one day hopefully may be a book. I continuously write short stories and articles, I try to inspire people in any and all ways. To any inspiring writer’s out there or people that just want to write, do so. 

You’re not alone

​You wake and notice you are not where you want to be. You still find yourself thinking about distant memories that you thought you were over with. So much is running through your head and you have no where to go. You put on your head phones, crank the radio or take a drive, start drinking, etc. This is the beginning of what you would consider a “bad” day. You start over thinking and start noticing all your problems so you start thinking you want to give up. This is what is like dealing with anxiety and depression. 

You would think that someone who loves deeply, follows God with his whole self that such thoughts wouldn’t intrude, but we are not perfect. I have thoughts randomly, I continuously need reassurance, and it’s not because I’m a cancer, I don’t abide to horoscopes. There will be dark times but that’s why we need to notice we can’t do things on our at times. 

We always try to do things on our own. We sometimes allow ourselves to drown by the chains we are held down by. The chains made by our thoughts, past we hold on to, anxieties, insecurities, and etc. But what I’ve found is that we sometimes need to be heard, hugged, even at times just to let go and be free. More importantly I’ve found that we need God. 

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30)

No matter my imperfections, mistakes I’ve made, how long I contemplate or even the amount of weights. He replaces it love and breaks free the chains, relieves the pain. No matter how deep the ocean, with faith we are walking upon the waters. The darker it seems to get, the more I can see the light, the stars and the space before me is nothing to me. It is not even about “feeling good”, you truly become restored, your state of mind and in turn your life changes when you allow him to take control. In all honesty you are not always going to be happy. Living the Christian life isn’t easy, in fact it is hard. You are tempted at every corner and those in your past will question why you no longer partake in all your old ways(1 pet. 4:4). 
In a culture and world that is so egocentric, we boast on our accomplishes, focus simply on ourselves or what we have gained and lose the sense of being a party of a community or body. You can say it is all about “me”. We reveal our highlights on Facebook or snap it and lose the value of a moment by a snap. When we allow our emotions to be known we are seen as trying to want attention when simply we need counsel and don’t want to feel alone. Yet through it all I’ve learned the greatest of commandments, to love God and your neighbor. Within these two, I’ve found a sense of peace. 
When I am troubled or can’t sleep I reflect on everything I’ve been through and the people who helped me get here, even if they just influenced me. My boasting is not of my own but to God, for his mercy and grace has allowed me to grow. Its amazing to know you are loved, unconditionally, wholeheartedly, and that you are truly not alone. It’s ok and it will all be okay, even if you don’t believe in god, know that there are others willing to help you, life isn’t easy, things happen that are not in your control, but you don’t have to walk alone. 

Be You

When’s the last time you looked in the mirror and were content on who you saw? When is the last time you were content with who you were in general? I’ve spent countless hours and days wondering the questions I just asked. I was always the type to look for something to fill myself or to feel happy. I never understood something that’s taken me this long. 
In truth, I was the person who would spend countless hours playing video games, I would drink, I even tried finding it within someone else. I was young and reckless but because of those experiences it made me realize the importance of who I am. 
We all try to look out or even try to copy an image of someone else, looking for our identity. As we grow up, we are told to chase after our dreams, but we forget to realize that we must first see who we are before we chase in full throttle our goals. Instead of trying to be someone else learn to take in everything around you and find yourself. You are not the latest trend so that when it changes, you have to. Even amongst being with someone else. No one other than yourself will complete you in this physical existence. You are your own person, when you realize this you begin to see who you are. It took completely being broken to understand, to find myself. It does not mean you lose value being with someone else and being as “one” or a team. 
What I am trying to get through anyone who reads this is this, be you, learn to experience different things. You can travel, try different hobbies, hear different genres of music, spend time with yourself. I never knew that my zeal would always be to write in the end, yet here I am. We can always find a way to escape by doing something but never let it consume you. You are your reality and every waking moment or second you are alive, you are unique, beautiful. Don’t let anyone fool you or try to to discredit these words I am going to tell you, you are amazing and wonderful just as you are, yes even if there are things you might need to work on, do it, but do it in knowing you want to improve, find who you are. The biggest enemy you face is yourself but when you learn to love yourself, who you are, know what you can do and be, you will show the world an amazing change. You reflect what is within and what is sown within derives from what you put in, be mindful, find a true peace of mind. Be you.

Secret of Life

​I’ve discovered something I’m not entirely sure many would accept. I’ve spent countless hours trying to understand things around me. The more occult the topic was, the more I would try to disclose it. I never quite pictured or come to the conclusion of what I now see or understand in this very moment. I presume that just by the title of this little article many would be intrigued. Maybe I do have the secret and just like a quote I heard the universe will start all over again, maybe. But what I am trying to express now seems to come from my experiences in life. 
Life, such a word that many still try to add an actual image to. Others suggest that the word itself cannot be explained but felt. What I’ve found is that it is all the above but more. Life is meant to be lived. Boom, secrets out, i know, I know, some of you might be like, “that’s it?!”, but let me explain. The secret to or of life is that there is no secret. 
We always try to add in or find our “purpose” but never truly consider the fact that simply what if we just lived. Honestly, we are told what to do in life, eat, study, get a job, find your career, get 2.5 kids and finally buy a house-that’s mostly in America though. Most people have these grand dreams and they have a drive to see it accomplished. But what if I told you that in the end of it all, it is all in vain. Like truly, the money you store up is not going to chase you into the after life of you believe in the beyond and if you don’t it merely gets collected by someone else. In today’s age, money is just a digital amount that is transferred and ultimately just loaned to you and has no value.
Now, I’m in no way impeding anyone to follow their dreams. We do have a purpose in a way, but it is, in my opinion, to find yourself and share who your are, your gifts, follow truth and show/share love. But this is all included in what I stated, to just live. We focus on the future and lose our sense of being present. We also begin to rush into things and never fully commit and when you are near the end of your passing life, you begin to realize you should of lived instead of just exist. It is difficult to fully have someone understand it, we all want to know our purpose, we all want to know the future, find our “one”. Honestly and being as true as I can be by my experience, life is simply meant to be lived. 
We create the life we choose, it is only boring, bad, happy, depending on the situation and environment you are in. If something is not “good” you have the choice to change it. People see this and take advantage, they become greedy because they take advantage of the false hope people have. What I can tell you is that you must decide on the life you are living and follow the goals you set forward. But don’t lose focus on what is truly important. Money is a necessity but let it not be your focus or any materialistic possession. I see so many people trying to uncover something that is revealed plain as day. Live, truly live, that’s the secret.

Facing love

​In every relationship people tell you things like, it’ll get better, you will find someone better, they don’t appreciate your value, they never deserved you, and etc. Truth is, sometimes we are not ready, the other person may not be. You allow your insecurities to come into play, you start assuming, overthinking, anxiety, and various outside factors comes into play. 

At times we truly don’t have control over a situation. But also love does conquer all. It finds a way through any problem, any situation, any distance. But with love you must understand that to have fully functioning relationship you need also trust, respect, and a sense of devotion or sacrifice. You may allow your emotions to take control but you can’t let it drive you. There isn’t a secret formula you can follow. Each person is unique and different, it is all about truly getting to know someone. 

Balance is necessary in all aspects. We try to rush into things and that is never how it should be. Love and the relationship itself should flourish on its own and evolve to true love.  They say there is 3 stages to every relationship: 1. Honeymoon 2. Revalation 3. True love

Upon the honeymoon stage you are infatuated to a sense with the person. They seem perfect to you, you always want to be near them or around them. Talking to them day and night and dreaming of the future.

The revelation stage revolves around the beginning of truly getting to know the person. You begin to see their flaws, their mistakes. You begin to have fights. But don’t get me wrong, every relationship has their fights. Most relationships never make it past this nowadays because various situations. You can either let it all affect you or grow as two people and learn to value someone else by working together hence the next stage.

True love, we constantly hear the tales from stories, books and movies. True love is the stage where you understand you work together or change as a person because you truly see past the person’s imperfection. You two help each other grow. No matter what fights or mistakes one has made, you genuinely want to be with someone . this all in turn is what people would call unconditional love. Once a relationship tends to truly find its footing with trust, respect, devotion, and love, true love, it tends to last a long time. 

One must understand first that it all depends on what foundation you truly build on. As upon my beliefs, I believe in all the factors on what I talked about But I also believe in adding and making my priority God as well. Like I explained in my other article about love, it is spiritual, emotional and physical, the connection they make.

Love is an adventure and I learned the hard way what it is by what love truly is. Love is an amazing experience and even if your heart breaks it allows you to learn and grow.

It’s ok.

Words that spark a desire of knowing you are truly good. We go through so much in life. No one truly gave us a book and told us, here this is how you will survive “your” life. Sure we can reach out to philosophers, counselors, doctors, pastors, and they can encourage or help us understand life and ways we can improve. But truly, no one explained to us as kids besides our parents how life will be. Even they have no clue what we will face or have faced. 

Everyone experiences things differently. As I grew up, I thought it to be strange how I shifted from an extrovert to an introvert. The more I knew or began to understand, the more comfortable I became with knowing myself, enjoying being alone, becoming “wise”-so to speak- and being “quiet”. I began to hold my tongue and prefer actual, intellectual, deep conversations and truly disliked small talk. I thought something was truly wrong with me, but no. 

Apart from who I became I experience much as well in the matters of life itself. I was fortunate enough to finish high school, though I was homeless during my sophomore and junior year for awhile. I had a very hard life growing up. My parents always tried their best. We would constantly move every 2-3 years, I was used to losing friends and experiencing change. I never truly knew how to hold on to things. That is until I began to value time and people. 

Through it all I was told about things I should do or ways I should act yet I began to notice as the years passed that really, it’s ok. Its ok to be yourself. Its okay to sleep in at times, to experience new things, meet new people, fall in love, let go, change. Every new experience, lesson, person, helps you become who you are today in this moment or who you are going to be. It truly is amazing. It’s ok. Be goofy, be weird, dress up, take pictures, capture pokemon, read books, text that special person. Life is short and if you simply want to be lazy for a day, do so, it’s ok. We live in a world where rules are placed but truly no one truly knows what will affect us. I’m not saying do whatever you want, be conscious about it with a sense of morality. What I am saying is, it’s ok, sometimes things happen, sometimes we want things to happen, you are not perfect, the world definitely is not perfect. If you continuously chase after love, truth, wisdom, and are willing to grow and share all of who you are with others, you will see that it is …. Ok. You don’t have to live a prosperous life of materialistic riches when you are rich with love amongst people who care about you. Just words I feel I have to share, it took me awhile to learn it but I know that no matter what, as long as God continues to work within me….It’s ok.

The Christian Life

What if someone told you you had to do something, you’re supposed to? Will you do it? I was on Tumblr and I read an article that someone wrote. I’m not in any way judging someone, nor am I trying to be or sound proud, religious and etc. She expressed herself by stating that at times you’re not supposed to be the “Christian”, do this and do that. She expressed that at times you just have to just be you, and she felt free, which is good in a way. But it brings about something that I’ve wanted to express to my fellow brothers and sisters in the faith.

 For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery. (Galatians 5:1 esv) 

Now, as I read what she wrote, I felt compelled to express my own experience and beliefs, from what I learned reading Galatians. We are no longer under the law, but as well because of Christ we are made righteous. I don’t associate Christianity as a religion. Usually people turn heads or say something like, he’s one of those like that video on YouTube. But people can judge, I usually just shrug. I hold to my beliefs and what God has shown me and taught.

 Thing is Christianity isn’t religion. You don’t have to follow a set of rules or do things because you have to. We are not perfect nor does God expect us to be perfect. The reason why we begin to change is because the spirit is working within us. We don’t have to go dressed to church, yet it is nice to be presentable and allow to be seen as respected. Some people then discuss holidays and what to eat or not to eat, Like Paul describes this in (1 cor. 8). Jesus described the commandments as loving God and loving thy neighbor. 

It is true that within the church some people have separated it in three sections, the Christian life as whole. Most people try to associate to one more than the other, they are: the rules, the rituals, and then the relationship. There are people who focus solely on the rules: you’re supposed to do this, you can’t do that, and that in itself is religion and promotes man over God and takes away from God himself as trying to make yourself seem righteous. Rituals is more in turn baptizing, confessing your sins, tithing, and etc. While the relationship deals with in knowing Christ to be Lord and allowing your life to be moved By the spirit. People within the faith get lost without finding the balance. Just because we are not under the law anymore it does not mean that we should ignore it. Galatians 2:16 shows us that it is through faith in Christ we are made righteous. 

The truth of the matter is, the Christian life isn’t easy. The closer we get to God The more we detest sin or move away from things that we used to do within the world. The more we think of things that are pure, holy. We are not called to follow a set of rules, we are told though to reflect Christ and the spirit helps us do so. It is not that we are supposed to do something, it is we respect God enough to change the way we are by abiding to things that benefit us and our brothers and sisters. 

You can be yourself. You can as they say, “come as you are”. God accepts you and loves you. Just know that because of our choice to follow god, christ, we die to our old ways, repent and lead a life just like Christ. Don’t let religion invade, you are not “supposed to” follow a set of instructions. But be aware not to turn back to your selfish ways. We make our choices and allowing our own deceitful intentions or counter with the spirit. Be blessed.