You wake noticing the breath you take. A mistake, the life that you contemplate? Wanting to disinegrate or never truly face fate. Dates passing by through days and years. Clear vision no longer viable as you steer through fears. Near the end but you notice the air, in, out. Mouth inhaling, exhaling and so you try to shout. What’s it all about, for we know not the future. You’re certain you still don’t know your purpose. Still searching within things that can fill the drought within us so we long and are yearning. A passion that we strive to over take us and have us turn and be transformed. We look for it within love, looking to the heavens above. But take a moment and notice what catches your eye. A shimmering light, reflected by that which shines through the skies. Creeping through your curtains and its only a ray. Masked by the beauty of the day yet you don’t know what to say. Lay there, acknowledge it, another second. It’s been given to you as if it is a gift, the present. Another morning.
Your problems may not have gone away but you can be grateful. We forget the beauty and the wonderful experience of merely waking up. To know you woke up. Another day that you can change, be change, or even just impact someone around you. We all strive to be this great person and trust me you are. It’s truly amazing how each person affects someone.
I look back at the choices I’ve made and know if not for my choices some people would not be who they are today. That though I may be just a small grain of sand compared to the universe, I was a part of history. That without me, things would have been different. You are important. I cannot stress that enough nor can I just say I wish I could take certain things back, no. Though I have loved and lost, it is better than not living at all. From someone who struggled to find his identity, I know who I am now, more than ever. And what I’ve learned is to live, truly live.
Be grateful of the life you have now. Things may not be where you want it to be but it’s a new day to push yourself to see the vision ahead of you. Be willing to take risks, meet new people, love, sacrifice. Not everyone will be the next oprah, but you will be or can be what motivates or who motivates the next “leader” of the next generation. The person we look up to, the light that shines through our darkest days. To me it has been God, in the days I thought I lost it all, he shun through. All I can say is to be a light and if you are through your own darkness, if you think all hope is lost, know there will be a morning. But also, take this into consideration, if you can’t see a light, then truly learn to be one and help the flames in others begin to come through, light up others. Be blessed, much love. Gee out.