I Am But A Man

Many people ask, “why should I care about all this ‘conspiracy’ or ‘truth’, if it doesn’t affect me it doesn’t matter?”. *takes a deep breath* How dare you? Doesn’t affect you? Really? Let me remove the gloves and take off my smile. This affects ALL of us. Since the days of Nimrod and his rise to power, to the belief man was a God, to the origins of most religion, to the worship of the sun God, the one who brought fire, not a delusion of Jesus but of Lucifer(Satan) taking his throne on this earth, Babylon, to the new Babylon taking form. There’s a class of people who deem themselves the elite and worship this deity. They have, for years, manipulated our culture, education, way of life to complete their agenda. It isn’t about ignoring it anymore, just doing so proves they have already brainwashed you. Saying it doesn’t affect you reveals an even greater sense of ignorance I’ve ever heard. Also displaying the side you have chosen, to do nothing implies a sign of conformity and surrender. 

The truth ive come to realize is people honestly don’t want to wake up from their fantasy. They are comfortable, as the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah ran rampant in their wickedness so shall we, believing there is no judgment, that our future generations will not pay the consequences of the world we are shaping for them. What has happened, O you people who marvel and bow before our own creations or place others as idols, though filled with imperfection? Why do we continue to live as mere fools upon the wake of our race decaying? It is not an egocentric act we speak boldly about the things that have transpired or will transpire, it is out of love and love. We risk our lives sharing this information, men, women, have died to spread it. This isn’t a jokibg matter anymore or something we can switch off. The system is taking back its rights to enslave. 

We are systemically being programmed to obey. I speak this from the heart, I’ve been in the other side, I only glimpsed the plans and seen passed the veil. There really isn’t a marvelous array of colors at the end of a rainbow in this world, this is a war, not of the physical kind. We waste away our lives as mere cattle and have lost the value of life, of people. We have gone wrong when we began to value ourselves superior than our neighbors instead of out of respect as a family.

 This can seem like a long rant and I can have people mad, but honestly, WAKE UP! This isn’t a movie, people are dying, lies are being accepted as truth, immorality is becoming the norm. We are at a crisis. It can seem all fun and games, share photos, like or double click pictures but where is the changed hearts, where are the people changing the world. And sure the question can be asked, “what are you doing?”, I’m speaking and opening the mind of people. I’m one of those people who spend countless hours researching, losing sleep, I was one of those who practiced magick, talked to demons, spent my time in the debauchery of this world, and for what? My own gain or pleasure? After a few hours I still felt like crap, nothing changed. I was that guy who liked to manipulate girls, for what? A passing of time with no real commitment to comfort my own brokenness? Life is an amazing thing, truly a gift, and we are allowing it to be robbed, shaped, and given a poor substitute. Love is another subject in the wicked experiment. To truly know love and be loved, it is beyond words. To be able to look at someone and be completely naked in mind, soul, body….to look in her eyes and say…you are as broken as I am but I want us to build a future together as we gather our pieces in a strong foundation. 

Call me radical if you will, a hypocrite, though I claim not perfection or superiority by the truth I speak or wisdom It may appear I have. I AM BUT A MAN.  Flesh and blood just like you. I fail and stumble, I bleed, I cry, I get angry, and I face the same temptations. Ive hurt people before and I am sorry about that, truly I am, but I do not regret the choices I’ve made now though at times I wish I could hug one more time, see someone one more time, even kiss. I AM BUT A MAN. We have to wake up, it’s not too late, the state we are in. We can turn back from all this. Through all my experiences I’ve found God to be the answer, to change me. I’ve said it many times, I cannot conform, I will not, and as the darkness stretches over the Earth and those who follow truth shall be persecuted, I will preach truth to my brothers and sisters, til my dying breath, even if I’m ignored. These things that are happening have been foretold and foreseen by people who have awakened to the reality. It is shocking to see people and how they live their lives and yet I cannot say nothing because it is my opinion? Though it all affects us in a grand scheme? Really? We need to get off our high horse and come to understand who we are, what we are going to do, and what can we do as people. This is all I have to get off my chest for now. It can seem like I am a broken record but until the message digs deep and one comes to understand it, it will never stop. I can always talk about cute, love, inspiring articles or words but also the truth needs to be shared and one shaken to the reality we are facing. I can even go into an even broader study but that in itself would be too long. One cannot change the mind of people, they have to do that themselves when they begin to see the light amidst the darkness.

Alone But In God’s Company

​I wake up every morning and just lay there, on my bed, reflecting life. It would seem the more time that passes me by, the more I reflect. Though I’ve managed to not over think and thanks to God be anxious about what lies ahead, I still ponder about things. I no longer feel the gravity of my past andfor the most part, use it to speak my testimony. All of this being said, there is something occurring within me, around me, the more I walk with and towards God. 

I’ve seen a radical shift with people around me. Not just with them but I believe the cause has been because I’ve been changing. The things I once enjoyed, I no longer do, nor the things I talked about. I understand now why Paul for the most part was dedicated entirely to his calling, I can feel the same intensity. I’m not going to lie and say some of the changes I’ve grown to accept, some of it I question but God is working within me and moving me forward. Conversations I have with people are not the same as before. I rarely talk to those I would spend hours with even, nor do I embrace what people consider the norm. My focus has been primarily on God, sharing truth, and in my writing, apart from that everything seems to be at a stand still. 

I remember reading an article about how A.W. Tozer followed and had a passion for God that he seemed to feel alone. His wife remarried and said she felt in a way neglected because Tozer was so focused on God. It is good, but also I understand the need of having a relationship with people and even your spouse. As the days progress and I feel an urge to be sucked in by this culture or world, my walk with God keeps me focused. I do feel alone for this part in the sense that not a lot of people can comprehend what I am going through. When I wish to speak on matters, their understa ding is not the same, or even when they partake in certain things, I feel myself inching away. The truth is, it is a common thing, we feel a need to find a relationship in any means, a companionship but as well not diminish your relationship with God. 

The more in tune I’ve been in following my passion for discussing truth, I’ve been genuinely happy. Not only in the sense that God is with me but as well I am doing something I love to do, teach people, guide them. Sin is still an issue and I claim no perfection but the Holy Spirit remains present and helps me. Even so, I remain patient in any sense if I am to marry someone, being cautious but as well discerning the future in the present. I will not say I am ready, I’ve confessed before how I may hold feelings for someone but even so, may God’s will be done. The path is hard, people will think you are crazy for the most part or a fool because this world no longer accepts or wants God. You will feel alone but it is still good to take part the church and have fellowship with believers, even build trust with non believers to properly preach the Gospel.  Even so, the call to follow him should never be to be focused on what is going to happen in your life but to worship and glorify him by all means, spreading the Gospel, creating disciples. This is something I’m being shown everyday. I cannot and will not conform to the state of this world, i can only walk alongside God and continue him to reveal his finished work and await his return.

The Divide or A Body?

I was asked once before why is their so much division in the church. Let me be clear as Paul was clear. 4For when one says, “I follow Paul,” and another, “I follow Apollos,” are you not being merely human?5What then is Apollos? What is Paul? Servants through whom you believed, as the Lord assigned to each. 6I planted, Apollos watered, but God gave the growth. 7So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God who gives the growth(1 Corinthians 3:4-7). This can be seen through the denominations of the church. Just the same, “Christians” who profess with their mouths but not their lives. Now again, within denominations some have a difference in opinion about certain topics such as pre tribulation, post tribulation rapture, others about holidays and etc. 

Now to properly state or see that one is Christian is by the bases of the belief. Sola scriptura, the bible being God’s word. Belief in God as creator that God is one, but also understanding the trinity is laid out in scripture, three persons, each holy, each with their own purpose in subordination, all God, not three God’s but one. Belief in necessary sacrifice of Jesus while also seeing we are saved by grace through faith, not works but recognizing faith produces works, for faith without works is dead. It is a view and in knowing God has allowed us to be saved by his work not our own. 

In my stand, I can state, I’m Christian, but my understanding is strictly biblical, I am an apologist in the faith and for the most part my understanding leans more to a calvinist/reformed view but not entirely. I do believe in post tribulation rapture. I don’t celebrate holidays on a personal note because I see everyday for the Lord, but just as Paul exclaimed, there will be some who set a day as Holy and that is fine but also be aware of the customs used or how you do it, research it. Though I can say I would exchange gifts on Christmas but it is as a sign of respect or to show love, even if there’s a day set, I would gift whenever and however, regardless of date. Just the same like I stated before, there are many who claim they are Christian or say they believe in God but just claiming and “believing” does not mean you are born again or saved. As well, there are cults or factions who claim they are Christian but are not, mormons and etc. 

The division people claim to see or see, is for the most part, American Christianity. Outside of the states it would seem one who calls themselves Christian are persecuted, live lives fully for God, and etc. We toss the title around to make us seem righteous. We’re not perfect. Just the same, there are those who lead others astray, false teachers, and many stray from the faith. We are the church, the people, and though it may appear to be divided, it is not. But as well we help others see the truth and lead them back to fellowship if they are astray. Though you may see “denominations” we believe in the core understanding and teaching of scripture. We are the body, each a different part, but coming together as a whole, used differently to glorify God, the church. Don’t be so quick to say we are divided or think differently because of one who claims their Christian, let their fruits be shown by their life.

Even If You Stand Alone


“All things are lawful for me,” but not all things are helpful. “All things are lawful for me,” but I will not be dominated by anything.(1 Corinthians 6:12) 

2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world,but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:2) 

It is interesting to look out at the world and see how far we’ve gone. Just the same, it is a marvel to see how little we’ve changed as a people. I’ve heard it time and time again how people have perceived us to be “far ahead of our time”, yet we are merely rediacoveting some things ancient civilizations once did. Yes, we have fancy cars, computers and etc. But apart from that there is something we have completely let happen, our humanity slowly decaying.

Let us look bavk at the ancient civilizations, where kings or pharoahs made the people dependent and as slaves, benefitting those in power. Separation of people by color and race or racism. People allowing their desires or what they deem acceptable by their own ideas, invade the culture as a whole. Such is the case, we’ve gone so far and yet have seemed to go no where at all. We’ve become comfortable. It can be seen, we have become tolerant of things that are happening in the world. We’ve allowed or state as a race(collective group-humanity) become distorted by our egos or empty philosophies or desires. 

To those who seem to keep at a distant or become aware of what is happening, we are singled out, appearing to be insane because we do not relish what others do. If we state our opinions and it is not on par with what the culture deems acceptable we are excluded, ignored or made to seem as fools. Yet through it all, I will continue to say, it is better to stand alone for truth, love, then to allow one self to be bombarded by a sense of what may appear good but is not truly beneficial. To not let anything truly master you unless of course we properly are in subjugation to God and not our own train of thoughts or emotions. We as a people are a part of the problem. We easily follow the crowd or what is promoted with an appearance of “good”. Sex is seen as a common thibg nowadays apart from love, even broken families seem to be a constant trait, and now even acceptable. 

Life will always be a difficult path. It is true there will be things we don’t agree on or even people, but one should never allow that to change one’s self to come in congruency with another. Of course we should respect people but as well be at liberty to state our opinions, now like I said before, if it is meant to diminish anyone than keep quiet and learn to truly be humble. We have to learn to stabd for what is right from the immorality that is happening and defend our rights as well as who we are as a people. Police brutality, racism, corrupt governments, these all must be dealt with and one must take a stand, even if one stands alone. In the pursuit of truth and ultimate freedom we must be ready to stand alone at times. One will be cast out at times but still, keep at it. The truth always stands. Never conform, change is made by risks, growth is made by experience, and we create history by doing something the world has never seen and instead of retracing our steps and allowing nations to fall or empires rise, let us be an example, so in turn many can be guided to change. To come in unity, to peace, with truth, in love.

The Unknown

​Sleepless nights, met with memories. Troubles, interwoven, weighing in on thoughts. Depression compressing and releasing it in waves. Tides shifting and leaving emotions marooned. Lost soul looking for a home. Trees rattling with leaves falling by the breeze. Looking out unsure of the shore on the horizon. So it seems to wonder what is on the other side. Green pastures, blissful paradise. Serenades played in ecstasy by the voice of your beloved. Lost soul looking for a home. A home, never understanding the storm. Such is life the voyage of the . . . unknown. . . .

All In One

​A common question arises to the Christian when explaining their belief, this not only entails: who Christ is, who is God, why is there evil, and etc. For topics sake, today I will touch upon who is God in the sense what many try to understand, God as one, while still understanding the trinity. Thus it is true, Christians believe in the believe (myself included), while some try to justify that scripture does not speak of such matters. Let us be first clear that no one can truly comprehend God, we are but finite beings. But as well let us take note what is revealed in scripture and that is what I intend to do. 

Before I let scripture and my own understanding be shown, let me as well clarify some things to those who have tried to understand or tackle this matter: 1. There is one God. 2. The Trinity consists of three persons. 3. Each is distinguished. 4. Each member is God. 5. There is a subordination within the trinity. 6. Each member has their own tasks. Now that this is explained, let us continue. 

God, the Father

“One God,  the Father, from whom are all things and for whom we exist…” ( 1 Corinthians 8:6). The Father, the ultimate cause of the universe. Understanding that God himself exists before time and space, unrivaled, and apart from the laws that man abides to by natural means. The same God who’s wrath will be poured out and because of his love sent his son to die for us as substitute. (John 3:16) The almighty God, on his throne, described in Revalations.

God, the Son

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.” (John 1:1) our Lord and savior (2 Peter 3:18). In this verse it comes to mind what was spoken about in Isaiah, “I, even I, am the LORD, And there is no savior besides Me.” (Isaiah 43:11). And even looking at the book of Isaiah, the prophecy spoken about Jesus’ birth. “For to us a child is born, to us a son is given; and the government shall be upon his shoulder, and his name shall be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.” (Isaiah 9:6) It is not something shocking when we allow his word to speak about God, it is the clearest picture of who God is and even though we have not seen the father, because of the son we have a picture of who he is. “15 He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation.  16 For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things were created through him and for him. 17 And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together. 18 And he is the head of the body, the church. He is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in everything he might be preeminent. 19 For in him all the fullness of God was pleased to dwell” (Colossians 1:15-19). A thing to note as well is not that he was created, it is stated, “ALL THINGS” were created through and for him. Just the same, the declaration of Jesus himself as stating, ” 13 I am the Alpha and the Omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end.” (Revelation 22:13) with the following verse 16 revealing who is speaking, Jesus. A title given to God, the first and the last. Or even how the Father himself reveals who he is, “8 But about the Son he says, “Your throne, O God, will last for ever and ever; a scepter of justice will be the scepter of your kingdom. 9 You have loved righteousness and hated wickedness; therefore God, your God, has set you above your companions by anointing you with the oil of joy.” 10 He also says,“In the beginning, Lord, you laid the foundations of the earth (Hebrews 1:8-10). Looking back at the beginning of Genesis and seeing God said, let US make man in our image. We can even take account what his disciples stated, “My Lord and my God!” (John 20:28). 

God, the Holy Spirit

“3 But Peter said, “Ananias, why has Satan filled your heart to lie to the Holy Spirit and to keep back for yourself part of the proceeds of the land? 4 While it remained unsold, did it not remain your own? And after it was sold, was it not at your disposal? Why is it that you have contrived this deed in your heart? You have not lied to man but to God”. (Acts 5:3-4) This passage in itself reveals who it is Ananias lied to. We at times don’t take into account that the Spirit resides in us as believers. God dwells within us, our bodies a temple (1 Corinthians 3:16).  “Or what agreement has the temple of God with idols? For we are the temple of the living God; just as God said, “I WILL DWELL IN THEM AND WALK AMONG THEM; AND I WILL BE THEIR GOD, AND THEY SHALL BE MY PEOPLE.” (2 Corinthians 6:16) 

Now I get asked many times why is not three Gods? They are not three gods and not three beings.  They are three distinct persons; yet, they are all the one God.  Each has a will, can speak, can love, etc., and these are demonstrations of personhood.  They are in absolute perfect harmony consisting of one substance. They are coeternal, coequal, and copowerful. Scripture shows that the Holy Spirit is subordinate to the Father and the Son, and the Son is subordinate to the Father. This is an internal relationship and does not deny the deity of any. 

The truth is, we as mere men and women will never truly comprehend God. What is required of us is seeing his Glory and grace, his power and bowing to him in worship. All knees shall bow to the Lord Jesus Christ. All mouths shall praise our God, the Father, on his throne, and all spirit will reside with the Holy spirit bearing witness of our salvation. To God be the glory. Let us then continue walking in faith, ” therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,” ( Matthew 28:19) Be Blessed.

I’m a Christian

​I am a misfit, In partiality it would seem that I may take things in sarcastic ticks, by no means does it imply irrational notions. I believe I like to challenge people and in terms of truth, bring it to light in its true, pure, definite form. It has taken me a lifetime to arrive in the belief which I firmly hold to. From studying the fundamental regularities and constants of physics, understanding how precise the calibrations had to be to derive our existence, and even if one small error came about, our survival would be nonexistent. The contigency of the world and seeing even the universe had to come about from more than a speck of nothingness but following the laws, depent on a source outside of nature. 

Seeing the impossibility of living a life with no meaning, though for the most part we have now claimed it for ourselves to live according to our own wills and define our own meaning, though such the case requires a notion that one is the central focus, the “God of their world”, relativism. It comes to no surprise even how my views seem to contradict the high sounding philosophies of this day and age. I promote the unity of the people while still valuing individuals. I uphold to love in an unconditional standing and relinquishing the sense of self, pride, but embracing humility. This as a whole is held by my belief in God. 

Though many can attain the notion that I am a mere fool, I am of a sound mind with reason. Even upon claiming a title because of my beliefs, a Christian, I am easily disregarded or completely ignored. Even more so I seem to “offend” people though I try to respect them. In most cases what I teach or speak about is no different than what those who have seen the world and it’s true nature try to reveal to the masses. Just the same, I follow closely the teachings of that which is scriptural, obeying God. It is by no means to place myself as righteous, but in understanding only through the sacrifice of Jesus I am able to come to God the Father. Some can mock or persecute my beliefs. But I will continue and follow the path, the way. For though many can reject the faith, it still stands, over years of many trying to dissuade, trick, or change the message as a whole. With people who profess they are “christians” but still live as if they know not God. It is trivial at times how one can be viewed and judged because of what many who claim to be the same, do wrongly, and never truly abide or are true christians. I have found meaning and a clearer sense of the world in Christianity than anything else. 

It is not believing a myth. Events happened and transpired through eye witness accounts, writing about things such as our own books on history have come about. Much the same, in seeing who Jesus is, that reveals the evidence of God for me. For though he was a man at a time, it was to reveal his nature and come to rescue man from his down fall. Jesus could only have been one of four things: a legend, a liar, a lunatic–or Lord and God. There is so much historical and archeological evidence to support his existence that every reputable historian agrees he was not just a legend. If Jesus were a liar, why would he die for his claim, when he could easily have avoided such a cruel death with a few choice words? And, if he were a lunatic, how did he engage in intelligent debates with his opponents or handle the stress of his betrayal and crucifixion while continuing to show a deep love for his antagonists? Christ said he was Lord and God. The evidence supports that claim. Many can say, jesus never claimed he was God but when the jewish leaders debated with Jesus, the claims he made and reactions of the leaders points to this account, to say the Father and son are one, claims a level of nature similar, or even before abraham was “I am”, the word was God, God declaring him God, book of Isaiah stating a son would be born and he shall be called everlasting father, prince of peace,  mighty God, to Revalations showing Jesus stating he is the alpha and omega. And in such case, the holdings of the trinity with the spirit being revealed as God written in the books of acts as the couple who “did not lie to man but to God.” But it all amounts to faith as said before.  My life may appear different because I no longer am who I used to be but that is God working within me. And I hope to reveal to others the truth I have not only seen but shown.