You wake up one day and realize your life is not what it seems, you’re 25 , 35, 45, not living the “life” you expected. Even looking back at it all, you also notice, this isn’t the “place” you wanted to be in. Here’s the truth, reality hits you one day or at any moment. There is a “mid-life” crisis but in all retrospect, there’s a time where you notice life is not what was painted to you.
I can repeatedly talk about pursuing your passions, how things go on in life unexpectedly and etc. I can even try to encourage and motivate people to change but let us be honest it is our choice. This is in fact reality. You do only live once. You make a mistake, say something, you can never take it back, life moves on. You can’t change the past so why is it that we are weighed down by it? We like to think of wonderful lives we could of been living instead of being grateful we still have a chance to “make” a wonderful life.
I’ve lived 25 short yet testing years. From a child with parents that provided though they weren’t rich with 2-3 jobs, to losing everything, to being stable, to being homeless and etc. I still can say I’ve been blessed, not only because of God but because all of that has changed my perspective of life and helped me grow. I’ve loved and lost while revealing my value and integrity of any relationship. I’ve been given the ability to speak and search for truth. Even if I may have altered my future, my purpose hasn’t been any clearer if it was not for the realization that this is life. We truly ultimately do not have control. Anything can happen and you are not guaranteed tomorrow.
I’ve grown restless seeing how this world has gradually shifted and is continuing to do so as I’ve matured. You could say I grew up too fast but I despise the world’s state nowadays. Lust, sex, infidelity, adultery, immorality, is a norm now, love is either perverted or turned to a fantasy where people are mere objects and you are the sole reason it should be given to you. Though these are my opinions, a lot can be said, we have turned narcissistic, allowing our egos to dictate us and set ourselves as gods when in reality we are imperfect human beings who don’t want to admit we make mistakes. We easily can’t accept others differences and individuality so we allow divisions, and yet scream unity by saying men were created equal while so easily as well pointing the stereotypes or differences. What’s happened to the world? Honestly? We have created this future and instead of being change we just talk about it with the intention of just speaking instead of being heard, understood, and hopefully being an example to lead others.
I have been having this tug in my heart for the past few weeks, it is not in any way anxiety. Just a sense of wanting people to wake up. We are so keen to think we know how to live our lives and yet when it is falling apart is when we acknowledge we don’t. We can’t do this alone. We need to realize the reality, life is not like the movies. There is no magic genie that will fix it, you can’t go back in time, this isn’t a dream. You will get that career if you work hard, yes, you will love again one day, death is a natural course in life and etc. Not everything you experienced or people you met will be the same. Something I’ve learned as a christian is that no matter how good I want to be or think I am, I just can’t, only because I’m not perfect, I’m human and in being so, I allow God to guide me in love, light, and truth and reflecting the image of Christ. I’m not the old me and though people can view my beliefs or opinions the truth is this, you are alive and something is wrong with the world. We need change, not something promised by a man but a change within us, to not be the same and pursue a new light. I can point to the direction of Christ, but ultimately it is your choice to accept it.
Life is complicating but as well it is easy. We’ve just overcomplicated things to such an extent we have turned to our imperfections our temporary, vain, creations to satisfy a sense of existence but no true living or happiness. Working jobs we spend years in school for to then retire and let the world continue to degrade or even invest so much in schooling only to have the system is corrupt that we work jobs we do not like. Happiness is a choice not a pursuit and life is not a mere word it is simply being. Things may not work out, but when we work through obstacles, come as one, see a new course we will begin to see this isn’t just our story, we all are making history and leaving behind some sort of legacy. Be blessed all.