You Are Gold.

Don’t fear failure. You can always desire for the results or focus on the outcome. What you forget is what or how you will get to where you want to be. Learn and embrace your mistakes, your failure, because then you will truly grow. There will be many times you fall but guess what? You shall rise again as scripture speaks about, that a righteous man can fall seven times but rises again (Proverbs 24:16).

Your faith is in the certainty of who God is making you to be, not who you are already, you’re a work in progress. “Authentic faith is not believing in God but believing God. Taking God and His word and obediently following Him, Regardless of the outcome…”- Art Azurdia.

Remember that though you participate in this world set your mind in what is above. Remember His promises and know that you have been set apart, loved, and led to a new life, in Him, with Him, through Him, for Him. God allows you to grow by burning and building on your weaknesses, testing your faith like gold through fire (1 Peter 1:7). Jesus said, “It is finished”, as well as saying, “follow me”, trust in God and grow as you live, work and let your faith be built on a firm foundation. You are gold.

Proof Beyond Reason

Might have briefly mentioned this before but I am a co-host of a podcast. We just started doing Facebook live and got more engaged in the social media spectrum. Yes, I know, those of you may be wondering how can I involve myself more if I’m not that fond of it.

Truth of the matter is that we are in a new age and as long as you don’t become addicted to it or focus specifically on the brand, pride, you are good. Our mission is to tackle or discuss topics that are not really spoken about in the church, culture, and etc. We of course use a biblical worldview but in the end our message is to share the Gospel and help others get closer to God.

You can check us out on Facebook, Instagram, YouTube and soon we will have our own website. Come and join us. Proof Beyond Reason.

Disputing Time


Why must I continue to count up or wonder if it’s coming up? Like what is it? If it goes up then why must I worry about it going down? Is it because it shall reveal what ends?  The preparations complete or revealing that I don’t have enough? was it wasted? Maybe I should take better care of it but is it really mine to hold? Perplexed, though I retrack statements to measure the weight it holds. How long should I explain?  Should I keep it short? When can I simply say I’ve had enough or desire more?  Digits calculated to explain the passing years; you could honestly say my days are numbered. But we watch watches wondering when we willingly will win. Yet we concede to the flow or stream,  allowing it to define the lines we wait for. I wrestle with the shadows display as days are set by sun.  Hands moving in circles ignoring the dropping sands burying my existence in history. Orbit in system in order of rotation spiraling since the Genesis. Bring me revelation with Z’s or in Greek, the omega. Presenting presents so I can now say it’s past when I later arrive. Before,  I actually clarified,  such a paradox is it not? I guess this is why I now walk and let it pass by,  valuing it,  but sometimes I forget and while I’m here,  I’m disputing time. 

Held by Grace

Even if the night arrives I know you light my world. Tales of old turned to epics. Your story has interwoven to my own. My life once centered in ego now has broken hold and found comfort in your embrace.  Such grace I will never fully fathom. Constant thought of such emotions breaking sounds of silence. Words I keep allowing to flow in waves. Find me in poetry, humbled by your name. Held by grace. 

Pure thoughts

I’m looking through countless options online for the perfect ring, the one ring I know for a fact will be worn at all time.  Options keep me perplexed and a thought comes to mind, does a ring really symbolize what is going on inside of me?  Is it just for show? 

Before anyone thinks I’m talking about getting engaged/proposing, I’m not.  I’ve been single for 2 years and for the moment, that is not on my mind due to where I’m at in life. I’ve done what most Christians tend to do,  wear a promise ring. I know, I know, you could say,  “Isn’t it a bit late, you’ve had sex before”. Thing is, it isn’t about what I’ve done or truly what I’m doing to reveal I’m staying “pure”. 

Let’s be honest,  as believers we’re plagued with temptation.  Singleness is not seen as a gift or chance to grow for most believers.  We follow godlydating101, other sites,  go to conferences, meet and greets,  etc.  The stigma that has developed is that if you’re not dating,  you’re not happy or always having so much fun you can’t commit.  The music we hear on the daily promotes lust and pursuing our desires.  The media in general is sexualized and being a man in this culture, if I’m not having sex than I’m not “active, living, and etc, as if I’m dead. Being “pure” biblically is seen as a joke. Laugh about it all you want but this is the truth, we as a people don’t Want to wait til marriage. 

I’m 26 years old, let me clear some tension and let me be real with you all, I’m not a virgin. I lost my virginity when I was 15, since then I pursued my desires and have been with 4 people.  My number is said to be higher but only rumors and lies still around for those who don’t know me.  I’m not a saint, I am tempted daily and I can say that I haven’t slept with anyone for about 2 years, since my last relationship. See, something truly changed on how I not only saw sex but being with someone, love or being in love, is special. 

I can easily be seen as a joke for my age and my views on these matters but it’s biblical. I’ve learned to be more cautious as of late,  not only protecting my heart but being careful I don’t entertain someone. I decided to get a ring to show physically my commitment to God as a promise to wait. Yes, I may not have been pure before but now, today, I uphold to it. 

It was easy before believing that love can overcome all with people and we can come together in the sense of believing and upholding to the cultures views. We’re called not to be unequally yoked, waiting and not being consumed by sexual immorality. A way God pours down his wrath is allowing us to be led by our desires so that we see in the end, it is not what we truly need-you can reference it in the book of Romans. 

It is truly troubling, for believers to think pure thoughts.  In the digital age we are bombarded and try to keep up with an ever engaging culture that is not really connected. We are addicted to moments and self validation,  the memories we wish to create or the highlights we she’d into the light,  only reveals the state we are in as a people.  We have turned from others and in being taught self love , we’ve overdosed and placed ourselves as our own Gods, though imperfect and prone to fail. True love is now misunderstood or abused. 

I may be nearing my 30s and I may seem foolish to most for holding on to something God has moved me to be. All I know is that I don’t want to be consumed by my passions.  My mind and thoughts are focused on God.  If I am to marry,  I will wait, pursue and in turn love my wife in all facets, biblically. I don’t need anyones approval but I do intend to follow in obedience what my father set before me and intended. 

I’m Ready

“I was born ready! ”

We have all heard or said that quote. Amidst countless of reasons we present a state in which we believe we can overcome or endure.  Now what usually happens is that things may not turn out the way we envision.  Nonetheless, we are prepared,  even if we may not fully agree.  

My life has taken quite a turn, from being troubled by my depression and anxiety, to God fully taking control,  once again.  I honestly feel good and my mindset has shifted. 

I tend to discuss a shifting or a change that occurs in us.  I’ve learned through this recent transformation that I held to the notion in which most of us hold to, “better me”. Sometimes we tend to believe that attaining something, being someone,  or even being with someone will change us,  make us better. What if I was to tell you that no matter what is on this green Earth we won’t be a better version of ourselves. 

Before you grab the pitchforks and hunt me down, hear me out.  I hold to a biblical worldview,  I’m Christian so I hope that comes across clearly to those who do not know me or my writing.  All this being said, we are not perfect  nor should we ever cling to the idea of perfection, if it isn’t Christ. We are all sinners and because of our nature, sin entering us,  nothing we do or say, have,  will alter this.  Paul spoke about it in scripture, apart from God,  we will fail,  and only God can save /change us. 

God wants us to be image bearers.  When the Holy Spirit enters us and dwells within,  we begin to bear the fruits,  reflecting Christ. We are given a new heart and a new spirit.  Things we did or how we are, radically alters and just as He is holy,  we pursue to be it as well. 

We’ve tried it already, we worked for x amount of years, graduated college, acheieved that goal, started a diet,  but did it really change who we are? It might have changed an outcome or surrounding but ultimately did it change us. The problem we haven’t realized is that true change is internal, it is a soul and heart change,  our perceptions and that in turn breeds true transformation. 

I’ve seen people discuss how they will go on a diet and then fail within a week.  I’ve seen people struggle with pornography for years. What needs to happen is a true heart shifting and mentality.  This I’ve learned can only be done by God. Now I’m not saying it isn’t possible for anyone to truly change. We have it in us to change but without He who is life,  it becomes a vain, egocentric pursuit. We will preach about what we did and etc.  You will hear motivational people discuss that you need to be a better you, while still developing a plan that may have worked for them but does not benefit you.  We each have our own path to follow and purpose. 

So then I’ve come to realize that I am truly ready now.  Before I was my own limitation,  I was in the way.  It doesn’t mean that I will stop being myself but that I will be who I was intended on being.  It is by the grace of God through faith in Jesus that I am alive and completely different than who I was.  I could have and should have been dead long ago, in my trespasses of sin and so forth. So as a way to help others understand this I challenge everyone who reads this to see where their heart is,  are you really ready for change or will you continuously hold to being born ready,  still waiting to be a “better” you.