Don’t just think I speak truth, watch my actions. Though I may have it written that I’m saved on status’s, it doesn’t mean I’m born again. If I speak boasting myself and say It’s from God, my fruits are rotten. Torn down by disease, my nature slowly eating me within. But I’ll occasionally post pictures of highlighted texts to show you I liked the passages. The message never delivered but because I hear it every Sunday, I guess it’s the same. Remember, it’s in my bio, I also have an app that sends me verses. Check off my religion as Christian. Are you sure my truth would stand in a court of law? Maybe of man but not in God’s. Though I would prefer to judge others outside the church than see my own flaws. Saying I believe while I blame Him when I can’t count my blessings. Lessons never learned as I crawl through the Earth. I prefer the taste of dirt than that of Heaven. Just because I may carry the good book it doesn’t mean I follow its words. Still trying to find a way because He never knew me in the last day. Still, you can call me a Christian but that doesn’t mean I am one. It’s in name only.
Might have briefly mentioned this before but I am a co-host of a podcast. We just started doing Facebook live and got more engaged in the social media spectrum. Yes, I know, those of you may be wondering how can I involve myself more if I’m not that fond of it.
Truth of the matter is that we are in a new age and as long as you don’t become addicted to it or focus specifically on the brand, pride, you are good. Our mission is to tackle or discuss topics that are not really spoken about in the church, culture, and etc. We of course use a biblical worldview but in the end our message is to share the Gospel and help others get closer to God.
You can check us out on Facebook, Instagram, YouTube and soon we will have our own website. Come and join us. Proof Beyond Reason.
“I was born ready! ”
We have all heard or said that quote. Amidst countless of reasons we present a state in which we believe we can overcome or endure. Now what usually happens is that things may not turn out the way we envision. Nonetheless, we are prepared, even if we may not fully agree.
My life has taken quite a turn, from being troubled by my depression and anxiety, to God fully taking control, once again. I honestly feel good and my mindset has shifted.
I tend to discuss a shifting or a change that occurs in us. I’ve learned through this recent transformation that I held to the notion in which most of us hold to, “better me”. Sometimes we tend to believe that attaining something, being someone, or even being with someone will change us, make us better. What if I was to tell you that no matter what is on this green Earth we won’t be a better version of ourselves.
Before you grab the pitchforks and hunt me down, hear me out. I hold to a biblical worldview, I’m Christian so I hope that comes across clearly to those who do not know me or my writing. All this being said, we are not perfect nor should we ever cling to the idea of perfection, if it isn’t Christ. We are all sinners and because of our nature, sin entering us, nothing we do or say, have, will alter this. Paul spoke about it in scripture, apart from God, we will fail, and only God can save /change us.
God wants us to be image bearers. When the Holy Spirit enters us and dwells within, we begin to bear the fruits, reflecting Christ. We are given a new heart and a new spirit. Things we did or how we are, radically alters and just as He is holy, we pursue to be it as well.
We’ve tried it already, we worked for x amount of years, graduated college, acheieved that goal, started a diet, but did it really change who we are? It might have changed an outcome or surrounding but ultimately did it change us. The problem we haven’t realized is that true change is internal, it is a soul and heart change, our perceptions and that in turn breeds true transformation.
I’ve seen people discuss how they will go on a diet and then fail within a week. I’ve seen people struggle with pornography for years. What needs to happen is a true heart shifting and mentality. This I’ve learned can only be done by God. Now I’m not saying it isn’t possible for anyone to truly change. We have it in us to change but without He who is life, it becomes a vain, egocentric pursuit. We will preach about what we did and etc. You will hear motivational people discuss that you need to be a better you, while still developing a plan that may have worked for them but does not benefit you. We each have our own path to follow and purpose.
So then I’ve come to realize that I am truly ready now. Before I was my own limitation, I was in the way. It doesn’t mean that I will stop being myself but that I will be who I was intended on being. It is by the grace of God through faith in Jesus that I am alive and completely different than who I was. I could have and should have been dead long ago, in my trespasses of sin and so forth. So as a way to help others understand this I challenge everyone who reads this to see where their heart is, are you really ready for change or will you continuously hold to being born ready, still waiting to be a “better” you.
Trickling sound of rain and the wind hitting my window keep me in constant thought. The choices I’ve made keep me in a constant state of depression. Yet, amidst the storms that pound my mental, I remain anchored. God has never left me.
We tend to forget why we started our career choices, why we moved, why we even said what we did. To make matter more complex, we completely forget what truly brought us to salvation and why we continue in the race.
For a believer, we remember the day we got saved and can even come to share our testimony but then what follows next can lead us in different paths of not careful. We’re used to hearing of obstacles or what Satan can do. We can be ensnared to follow religion and be under rules, regulations, for our course. Yet through all of this, the biggest obstacle I’ve found is ourselves.
When you stop letting yourself get in between what God has planned for you, you will then grow. You think you know what’s right and you can debate if you do something for yourself or God. Understand that in all you do or who you are becoming, it should be for His glory, not your own. You are blessed with gifts and many will acknowledge or praise you, but the direction you lead should always point to Him, if you are truly a believer. The heart issue is resolved when He is your center and he has given you a new heart which reflects His own; when you radically destroy the ego, the self and come humbly before God.
I think that is something I speak about or reiterate from time to time. Something I need pounded into my head til I fully trust God as well.
It is easier said than done, to love for God. Yet, we’re not told of the persecution, the hate and etc, that follows. For if they did not accept Him who died for us, what more will follow those who worship Him?
We can enter the mediums of entertainment, different industries to attain a level which is promoted in the world. Just as I can blog and be on a podcast but the real question arises, what is the purpose? We can say as writers that writing is an escape and I find myself at fault to this. But and this is huge, what are you trying to escape? Lucius, what or who are you trying to escape from? Did not God make all things new and put to death your sins? Why must you continuously forget or think you can do what you already could not without God?
After all of this I’m reminded that as I come humbly to Him in repentance, my heart yearns to truly do His will. He speaks to me, the Spirit revealing scripture. Trust in Him, that He shall give me the words, He will give me a new mind, but ultimately I must let Him. I get in the way, my ego. This is why Christ calls us to die daily and so the call continues to be made, to carry out cross and follow Him.
Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. 2 Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4 and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, 5 and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. 6 For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. 7 For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— 8 but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. (Romans 5:1-8 ESV)
Let us pause for a moment and truly read the verses above.
From the title of this post you may already know what the subject will entail but I don’t think it is spoken about as often as it should. Rejoicing, finding joy, “being happy”, these are all terms we hear in the culture. Within the church the “positive” movement or consciousness has infiltrated the church with new age teachings. Though the terminology can seem as a right thing to abide or use, it is dangerous to say the least.
Now, we hear various people throughout scripture talking about rejoicing in God or finding our joy in Him. Very loosely we have peeled some layers to include rejoicing or finding joy above anything else. We have introduced a sense of the ego in which we now seek happiness, instead of seeking holiness. Being happy is now worth more than being holy.
From the Psalms, as well as the book of thessalonians, we read to rejoice always. But what many confuse is that joy comes from the peace of being with God. We don’t seek to be happy but to obey and love Him as He first loved us. There is a misconception when we speak about these words and the meanings people have now interpreted. Just as the danger with prosperity gospels, happiness, or positivity can truly leave one distraught when the reality hits you. Now sure, we can be realistic and not think negative all the time but for the most part we have been taught that whatever we think, we will attract. This is new age thinking at its finest, it is literally called the law of attraction. The Truth is, you don’t become what you surround yourself with or think but what you allow inside and allow to manifest from within.
I can discuss the occult and magick as if I was still studying and practicing but it doesn’t mean I am defined by it. Just as Paul studied what the Greeks believed so he could be better equipped and still vigorously preached Christ. Or better yet, Christ sitting amongst sinners and still being an example. Now it is true to be wary of what we have around us or allow inside us but also understand sin becomes sin when we beat fruit to our desires which go in contradiction to the will of God or intended nature.
I hope I didn’t throw things in a loop or out of your heads. I am trying to clarify a simple message, our joy is found in Christ. We will not be happy from the things of the world nor because we are no longer single, etc. No matter what we endure, our hope is in Christ and because of this we rejoice, knowing that everything else is vain apart from Him.
I ask as someone who also asks himself this question, are you seeking Christ to be happy? Or are you happy because you are in Christ? Gee_ology out, be blessed.
Let’s not throw dirt under the rug. Let’s put everything out there on the plate. It is better to be honest and lead by example than being seen as one who just talks the talk and even though you can’t physically see me, walk the walk.
I’m Christian, sorry to burst your bubble of you expected more or less. I honestly don’t have to apologize and I’m not going to “push” my beliefs on anyone. A lot of what I write will reflect my beliefs though.
Now, to the topic at hand. I’ve been busy from but for the most part, like I stated before, I’ve been reflecting my life. I can easily say that I’m Christian but the real question is, are my fruits beating the reality of what I claim to be?
Being a 26 year old male is not easy in this world. Guys are stereotyped and judges by our race or past. I’m Dominican and Chinese so I usually fall into the category of being a party animal, drunk, player/womanizer, or just reserved. Yet, I don’t fit into any of the occasional norms.
I’m still single since my last relationship which is coming to 2 years. I haven’t had sex in about that same allotted time and even though I’ve tried to be abstinent we all know as human beings, temptation can strike, like with pornography. I’m not a saint nor claim to be one. But I do know I rather not engage intimately with someone unless I’m in love and heading towards marriage. I honestly can’t do it anymore. The games or body hopping people do nowadays to what I used to do during my early years. I haven’t really had a huge body count (saying it creeps me out) but I do know I’ve only ever truly felt I was making love with one person out of the few. Let’s lay it out there, I’m a sex addict, an ex alcoholic, and unstable person who has the worst kind of OCD. As apart to most people with OCD, I have violent or sexual images pervade my mind along with the usual compulsive thoughts, cleanliness, ticks and etc.
Now, when I say unbalanced I mean I can jump from being eccentric to completely shutting down on you. My emotions will be almost non-existent and it honestly bothers me.
People think that as a Christian we are supposed to be these angelic people who are sin free now. Now, yes, Christ paid the penalty and the spirit is working within us to shape us in the image of Christ and we obey God; We also know that the flesh draws us to want to call prey to our desires.
I’ve reduced the amount of alcohol I consume to only special events and just enough to not allow myself to be tipsy. I’ve prayed and grown to see what affects my lust. I’ve also promised God I would be abstinent till marriage. Now I may be living what is perceived a celibate life now but I do so until I know I am ready to pursue or God allows me to see who he has prepared for me. At times we focus on waiting and not realizing God wants us to act and I intend to discern.
The reality is that the Christi an life is not easy. The world can influence us. The songs we listen to, shows we watch, people we are around. We can be a light in the darkness but remember with every storm the fire can be overcome if not covered sufficiently.
I advise all my brothers and sisters in the faith as well as myself, when I look back at this post. Trust in God. Be led in love and let love be your guide, to love is the greatest of gifts and the ultimate sacrifice, to love is to act and in the act We reveal who we are and meant to be. God bless you all. Gee_ology out.
Working retail is exactly what you hear about. Working management makes it seem tougher. Though I’m not like the managers people talk about, I still am considered the manager and I’m used to the backlash of employees and customers.
I worked a consecutive 90+ hours one week and just finished the week before Christmas-which is Today-94 hours and not including Christmas eve.
Am I crazy? Is iy really worth it? The paycheck that I will see at the end of the week? I can’t really answer that but for the very first time I am exhausted. I’ve stated it before and I can’t believe it to be true but my body is actually slowing down. I’m used to doing things that push me to my limits and as my brain speeds up, my mental health getting better from depression and anxiety, my body is feeling the strain of all the years overworked.
It is a miracle that I made it through this year’s season. Being low on staff, hardly eating at all, sleeping 3-4 hours and working 12-21 hours a day. It also taught me something that has disappointed me and shifted my views about people today. We call it helladays at work.
People are truly consumed into materialism. I met some good people who understood how tired we were while others and mostly all other people, mind you-who were late shoppers-were completely numb to emotions. Christians who swear to representing the day to Christ would throw a fit because of lines at stores and many people who swear they are “good”, fueled by greed or anger. Then like a day after all shopping is said and done, when we get together with family, they forget. People who swear I ruined their Christmas because of the present they couldn’t get when outside of Christianity the view of Christmas is being around family and appreciating others we love, as a gift.
But, of course, I’ll hear people say merry Christmas, the occasional texts. Which my response is always, “yea, you too”. The thing is, I still hold to everyday being the same. I don’t celebrate holidays and yes, I do see Christmas as a pagan holiday. Coming from the occult, I have seen all the dark roots of various traditions and shifts of rituals into our daily practices. In today’s world, new age consciousness has pervaded even the church and schools.
But I can say something as well, I found myself thinking about what I truly am grateful. I’m embarrassed to say I’m grateful for certain things but for the most part, I’m happy I experienced them. For one, my niece has given me the fuel to keep going apart from God. Though I haven’t been as strong in the faith, I know I must trust in Him and continue to follow His path. I’ve let go of social media which based on who I am, it is a trap for depression and anxiety, a way for me to lose focus and so I detached from being “connected”. Though I can honestly say I’m not too fond of my job now, it has allowed me to break free from my insecurities and allowing me to talk to people without being afraid. My ex, though our differences, time and distance now, I can say I’m grateful and still hold her close in mind because I saw my flaws and grew as a man, the one she knew I could be and I’m still growing.
Overall, this post is not only my account of the holidays but also, people in general. Though I may not hold your views, with the coming new year’s, life comes and goes. Be grateful of who you have and what you have, don’t let yourself become consumed by what the culture promotes or society. Gee_ology signing out, boom, let’s go!