Category Archives: apologetics

In Memory

They never tell you how short life is. Today my friend texted me and told me that R.C. Sproul died. Now personally I never knew the man but one thing is for certain is that, he impacted me tremendously in my life.

If you dont know by now, I consider myself a Christian apologist. I’ve delved into theological debates and even written articles about the Faith and God. Through my journey or research, I’ve found that there have been men and women that God has placed that have caused me to become inspired and truly learn from. 

With the amazing ability of the internet, though I may bash it at times, I’ve been blessed to hear and learn from many influential people. R.C. Sproul was one of those people and even now, I know his messages and expression of faith will impact many in the years to come. I pray sincerely that his family may draw closer and rejoice in knowing that he is with the Lord he served diligently for years, and if they feel sadness as I’m sure they do, may they be comforted. 

This brings me to the truth of the matter, time is truly so short. A lot can happen in a year and a day. We look back at times and notice that those who stood beside us No ponger are with us, even if they may not have passed in life, from our lives, they are no longer connected at times. This is why I say that in memory of all who are with us let us be truly grateful for those who are with us, never forget those who changed us and truly, let us understand that people are treasures that are greater than any of what we can gain that the Lord allows us to share with Him during our time on Earth.

Call from God

The call from God, the Gospel, though it is good news, is not to live comfortably and conformed to that of the world. When we are impacted with truth we are radically altered and drawn to repentance. Within this change we begin to drastically change who we are and what we used to do. 

A changed life is the reflection of such an experience. Everything else is a mere attempt to show the appearance. You cannot say you are of one or the other without your life revealing your true intentions or beliefs. Truth cannot be hidden and always comes to light. This is why a person is changed in such a way and many ponder to what occurred. Yet let it not be mistaken, the change is first triggered by God. 

Man cannot save himself and no matter what he does, he remains imperfect unless there is a mediator which is Christ. What follows after salvation and repentance always entails love, obedience and a firm relationship with the Father. To be Born Again is this what many may call foolish yet no man can understand it unless revealed. Keep strong in the faith and do not falter. Though we may fail, our rest and hope shall always be placed in God.

Truth in Life


Now I speak from a Christian point of view. Truth can be shaken and stirred but it will ultimately never mix with lies. Half truths are still lies in the end. Such it is when discussing subjects. 

Many may hold to a relative truth but it is a truth based on feeling, opinion or experience within the perception of another. Truth is dealt in absolutes. Though perceptions may differ, truth is derived upon the full study of a subject to reach the conclusion, not taken in parts to benefit our own understanding. Take a can and bottle of coke. Give an item each to 2 different people in a different space. Tell each that coke comes in that standard. When the two people come together and recite what they know they will say that coke comes in one way or the other. Yet we know as the observers that coke comes in both formats. 

Now people assume that this applies to religion or even science. Lots of people either claim that God is the same in all religions but appears differently. This of course cannot be the case as the God of Christianity stands apart from the rest as being the sole creator of all where no beginning of Himself came about but preexistent and omnipotent. As Well, some claim different beliefs within religion and uphold to religious standards and formulate their own idea of God. Mormons, seventh day Adventists and etc that all come from teachings of Freemasonry with different approaches or understanding. 

In science we see that laws are placed in the world with order and one cannot simply negate the truth or validity of how the world works. Yet people still try to base science as philosophical as to, why it exists. Within the search or truth of truth, so to speak, we see many things that are brought to the attention of man. We have morality, what is good and What is evil. We have established a firm judgment based on culture and as well, beliefs of the people, in majority. If, for the most part, a nation is part of a certain religion, then the laws will derive upon the system. Yet it is key to note that in some cases it is not the case. We have America where it was said to have been founded by Christian principles but in reality the founding father’s were theists, freemasons and etc, with a clear notion that all beliefs were to be respected. 

Respect doesn’t mean that you accept but that you allow without stirring any division. I can respect your choice to Not read this post but I also wish you would. It is like when someone approaches me and tells me they are gay and I will still respect them as a person but doesn’t mean I follow the same mentality and am also gay. I hope you catch my drift on this. 

Now, back to truth. Ultimately, truth is meant to be searched, taught, and explained. It is never really as vague as people claim it is. Truth is apparent and the evidence shall always support it. I can say Christianity is the Truth, but then that is an absolute statement and will or must be tested. If all variables prove it to be so, then it will be. This is why I’m apologetics we try to bring to light the lights or error in beliefs and present truth. 

Now, I’m not saying Christianity has its perfect standard, other than Christ. Because Christians do indeed stumble. We are not saints and we still do get tempted. We’re human still being shaped by God to bear Christ’s image. It is now considered a religion by most when in reality a relationship in where the Spirit dwells within, the Son is the mediator to the Father, is established. There are false sects and even division because some people want to perceive things differently and at times, some discussions will be had. You may believe in pre trib, post trib and etc. Yet the foundation holds when you can properly hold to scripture, there is one God and We have all sinned, because of this, God himself, because no man can save himself, came to set us free and because of this, in repentance and turning back to Him, we are redeemed only through Him, for a just God shall declare a righteous judgment. But then of course we have some who disagree and try to dissaude others to believe their own notions. Ex: God is not trinity, there are three God’s so Christianity is false, jesus never existed and etc.

I usually like to see truth as a science experiment. I theorize, experiment, test and make a conclusion. Truth doesn’t change but our perception does or we become aware to the reality. What is important is to take time to properly seek and not dismiss because another says so, invest serious time and don’t be afraid to doubt or get into debates. In the end, if it is true, it shall not cause you to stumble. Gee_ology out.

Being Christian

You’re not a typical Christian. Believe it or not, this is what I hear or read when I talk to various people. My response is usually a question which is, how is a Christian supposed it be? People usually respond with something they have heard or read once somewhere but never truly what is completely revealed in scripture, by my experience. 
We’re in the holiday seasons now. This all indicates the same questions get asked of me: why don’t you celebrate holidays? See it is something to take note by what Paul described about observing days, as well as food (Galatians 4:8-10) (Colossians 2:16). For myself, it is just a day, another day to be thankful for as well as another day that is of the Lord’s. It is good that people take the time and prepare, etc on a certain day in commemeration or celebration, but don’t let it ensnare you as well. Usually what I see is that after the day, people turn away from God or grow distant as if they accomplished their task. This is all as Christians, those in the faith.

I get asked as well in regards to holidays being pagan and believe me from doing massive amounts of research, mostly all are pagan holidays. Scripture does say to beware and not follow in the same customs or traditions as the pagan. (Jeremiah 10:1-4) (Deuteronomy 12:29-32) But also understand as Paul describes in Romans 14, “it is to each of his conscience, conviced in his mind, giving glory to the Lord” some will be “weak” in the faith and see certain things differently, it is not our job to judge as he describes. Reality is, you will see most professing Christians celebrating holidays, but I cannot stop them, only teach what scripture shares. For myself, I see it all for God. 

Now this also comes to shock to some by how I live. I enjoy music, love anything that inspires me and encourages me, speaks truth and etc. I’ve heard debates about people saying that I can’t listen to secular music. It is interesting when they say stuff like this. I remember a comment on Lecrae’s recent album, a guys claimed Lecrae sold out because he said Jesus 3 times in his album. I laughed for a moment and then followed by explaining the references to scripture, the context, as well as using music or your talent for the direction to lead and encourage others. That is the calling and command, to sing psalms and hymns, songs to one another, help one another as well use your gifts and give him glory. While I can enjoy an artist using his/her gifts, given by God. Now of course I will not entertain anything that will tempt me into temptation or allow me to bask in sin.

The reality is we have misunderstood when scripture says, “Do everything for the glory of God”. We wake up, brush our teeth, work and etc, and we hear pastors or “Christians” say things like, you have to do this or that to really be Christian. Christianity is not religion but a relationship with God. We do everything, true, and in all we do it is to glorify Him. It is the manner or attitude we do it, not to prove something but truly our fruits shall bear witness. How we love people, how we speak and what we do. When we are spouting judgment or act like we are rebuking let us first rebuke ourselves and check our intentions. Is it really to help someone truly in sin or to reveal we are “holier than thou”. 

I actually get that a lot, for example when I am discuss music as well as words. I’m a writer. I can use words in its proper context and yet people become heated saying to watch my mouth. Which I then correct by saying that their response in such a tone and even intention was what was in error. Take for example saying something like, “Damn, Satan, why do you tempt me?” People would go eyes buldged like he said the word damn. They would say I was a hypocrite and that I am lost and etc. But notice their response, claiming I am lost or judging me, it is good to correct but then again, are you following religion or God? Obedience is necessary, true, but as well, let us come to reason in maturity as well. Words used correctly and incorrectly have a big impact. Jesus would state the gravity of certain things, looking at anothers wife and etc. Such it can be with words as well, for what purpose or what meaning does it fall under?

Being Christian is, in reality, not intended to be easy. We are imperfect people and Yet we rejoice in Christ, born again and are transformed daily by the Spirit. There are moments of doubt and at rimes where we fail but Christ’s finish work rests upon the promise of the Spirit residing in us. With the substitute being himself he has allowed us to come before the Father and have a relationship, to know and be known by God. So yes, I’m not your “typical Christian”. I believe strongly in following the word and abiding to His truth, allowing the Spirit to change me and bear the image of Christ. What I do can be seen and what I say can be heard but if I fall short I know it is made complete and finished in He who died for me. His resurrection superseding death and allowing me life anew, because of this I go unto the world and recite the Gospel, create disciples and teach. I was raised in the church but was not a Christian til my heart was convicted, I was not a Christian til I repented and was Born Again, with the Spirit making me His temple. If I speak now it is being bold in He who I give all glory. Be blessed all.

In God I Trust


2 days. That’s all it took really. Past two days I’ve been having some serious back pain. This isn’t the first time I’ve had this pain though. Since my accident-car accident, my back has Never been the same. It would come in random spurts or when I would try to get into exercising hardcore or martial arts. Yet through it all, trying to be up at work, getting no sleep at all, everything has been an eye opener. 

I’ve been finding myself slipping a bit from God. Recent events with friends, love, and life in general has completely rocked my world. It is a good thing I’ve gotten back into the groove of writing as I used to, since it is my therapy. But like I stated before, it only took 2 days. 2 days gor me to notice where I was heading and it was because of my back hurting. 

I usually have to stand about 8+ hours a day at work and when I had to use a chair for a majority of my shift, I felt myself crying out to God. This helped me snap awake to a lot of things that have been happening as well as the reality of why I come flat on the ground in worship. I’m not guaranteed health, financial status and etc, yet I still come before him in humbleness. I know he can remove this pain but my first words when I came before him was, “if this is a lesson as so I can see the burden of my emotions, physically, let it be your will, but truly if you can, lessen the pain so I may continue doing your will.” It helped me see how much of my life revolves around Him. The saying would ring out of what is behind that dollar, “In God We Trust”.

I’ve tried to honestly keep myself in a balance, enjoy some of the things I used to when yet God has transformed me and as well, is slowly having me focus on what is of Him. I probably am not the best example as a Christian but all I can say is that I ask the Spirit to renew my mind daily and allow me the wisdom, heart filled with love, and to truly reflect Christ. 

I can live this life pursuing a sense of joy or happiness but truly I can only find it in God. Nothing else will equate to what he gives. Nothing.I can endlessly discuss my depression and anxiety, go into rants about the things I hate but truly what matters is Him, in the end. I could be like most people who seeks God when it benefits them but I’m not them. I’ve been successful, I’ve been poor, all that matters is Christ. To preach his word and lead others is just my calling and I wish to impart truth and love to all, regardless of what occurs in my life. I don’t know my future, my love life and etc but guess what? I will trust in Him and believe that he is preparing me to do His will. I trust in Him completely and I hope everyone who reads this, sees this as well. Regardless of what is transpiring in your life, He tells us to come to Him, he doesn’t just ask but commands and when we obey, our lives are forever changed and find the peace we seek. 

Naming God


​Looking from a Christian perspective, I get asked what name I call God. I’ve talked to people who held he had to be called differently. We see this with some Jehovah Witnesses and etc who associate strictly Jehovah and all else as heresy or idolatry. We’re going to look at it from a Christian perspective. 

Though authors of Scripture, under the inspiration of the Holy Spirit, were allowed to use generic terms, it is not wrong for us to refer to Him as “God” or “Lord”. It is better and crucial to know God, than to debate on his name, he is called many things in scripture but what is important is to know he is Lord, our Saviour and God. Scholars and linguistics will state that vowels were not used for Hebrew, so the appropriate name if YHWH was commonly seen. The association of vowels derived from Adonai and Elohim, which brought Yahweh, or during the translation of the KJV, was shifted to Jehovah. But through it all we know who is our God and his names reveal his glory. Here are some of what we hear in scripture:

YHWH, Yahweh, Jehovah: Lord. Jehovah-Jireh: the Lord who sees. Jehovah- Rapha: the Lord who heals. Jehovah-Nissi: The Lord our banner. Jehovah-Shammah: the Lord is there. Jehovah-Rohi: The Lord our Shepherd. Jehovah-Tsidkenu: The Lord our righteousness. Jehovah-Elohim: our Lord, creator. El Shaddai: God Almighty. Adonai: Lord (in substitution of YHWH, when directed to gentiles in ancient times). El Elyon: The Most High. El-Olam: Everlasting God. So-Gibhor: Alright God. Jehovah-Saboath: Lord of Hosts. Abba, Father. I AM. Alpha and Omega. Emmanuel: God amongst us. The Way. The Truth. The Life. Jesus Christ. Yeshua. 

Open Heart

​To love and be loved is truly the greatest reward.

I remember these words I write years ago. They now resonate within me and help me with my current transformation. I could feel it, another shift in my mental as I draw closer to God. 

My honesty and humbleness has now manifested beyond comprehension. I could feel the sense of truly wishing to help people but not just wishing but actually doing. I’ve also come to the realization of who I was. Before I knew who I was I would ignore the fact of the damage I had done. I would self loathe only to fall into depression. Yet, now, I wish to reveal who I truly am to others and noticing a vital problem. No one really knows me as I am now. 

I’ve hurt so many people in the past or had self interest that trust was lost. Even with this being said I also noticed how much time, distance truly separates people. I’ve been trying to connect with those I cared about and yet it seems to be difficult. It’s weird but I truly feel alone, though I have my family and few close friends. It’s like I’m reintroducing myself to most people. 

Remember the stories or the reputation I held? That was just a facade. It’s something I was told to do, create an identity to never truly be known. So you heard about the guy who was so quick to sleep around or out partying. Yet because of my past I learned to never embody myself to that which would distract my studies. Though I occasionally found myself under bottles or smoking to escape reality. Til I found that self control and being sober, facing my problems, brought me better benefits. 

I was a kid for the most part, thinking as a child and never understanding the world and how to embrace people. It was all about me. Yet God has been speaking to me. To follow him I must die daily. To love in such a way that nothing else will pour out from my heart. To be filled with his love that I seek no validation or pleasure from something else because he is enough. 

I can’t take back the words spoken or the actions but I can only be who he is making me to be. I don’t have to prove I’m changed. He tells me, Just love and be a light, an example. I will not be the same as before and to understand I am not of this world. Many who walk that path now that I used to be with can say I’ve grown “soft” but in reality I’ve grown strong. I invested too much on vain pursuits. 

I remember the nights wondering what was wrong with the world. We’ve become so cold as people. I would shut myself off and ignore everyone. Yet God stepped in. It was always my Father, showering me in his grace, always. For that I am beyond grateful. He continues to lead me away from that which is damaging to my being. Rest in me are the words written, cast all your anxieties on me… My identity is not found by what others say but in who I am in Christ. 

I’ve grown tired of these games I play with myself. One moment I’m happy and then I get triggered and fall to my own mental prison. I’m exhausted actually. Falling into the affairs of love in what the world declares it to be only to get hurt or hurt others. I’m more than that, I don’t believe in soulmates just in two people truly coming together and working through all odds, not in perfection but towards unity as a family and couple, loving beyond conditions, as intended. So I appear now as an old soul and I am not in a rush towards marriage as before. 

In essence, my heart is now open. Like if God was here with me performing open heart surgery and others can see my what lies in my heart. From the darkness of my past to who I am now. I am not my past. 

It’s funny actually, how I can discuss these things so openly now while years ago I would build walls and only those I let in would see beyond them. Or truly how a shift commenced by one person breaking through. 

My life is not my own. It is God’s, for him I live and breathe. I wish to share this love with others and the truth of who He is. I can’t explain it, I try to and yet it is beyond words. I know people will think it odd of me or even wonder what happened to Gee? I won’t keep explaining it, just grow with me. I’m sorry to all I’ve hurt and those who may not trust me now because of who I was, see me for who I am, now. 

I love you all, those that read my work, those that have seen my journey and walk with me. Life is truly amazing. And what I am trying to convey to all is that love truly is what life is about. Love with your all. Love at all times. Love and never give up on love, ever. Don’t be afraid to love and show your real emotions. Be blessed. This is Gee_ology aka Lucius, signing out.