Overcoming the Tides


Hmm…it would seem as of late I have had a couple of problems that vex me. You could say it is a collection of the trivial ordeals I have swept away before. I’ve tried to “keep up” with the times, yet it is always a puzzle to me why I can’t really stay focused. I’ve undergone my own versions of a digital purge, erasing any ounce of existence to the very pixels on a screen, in the “web”. I would like to think that once one is snared or caught, there really is no escaping. 

Now, I’m not one to simply give up or become stuck when an issue presents itself. I’ve had to learn and grow as I continue on in life. Every step I take leads me to a better understanding of what I must do. Such was the case when I decided to hop back on social media, to help me network and promote my blog or my work. Yet again the attacks are made on my conscious and I’m plagued with a feeling of losing myself. 

As of late I have also not been in my best shape. It seems that I seem a bit “off”. Only my best friends seem to notice that I have detoured. It could all come down to what is really going on in my heart. A major shifting of times with my thoughts being the vehicle, riding the oceans of emotions. I seem a bit, confused. I can’t really make it all come together with words yet I write about it so it doesn’t crowd my mind and cause me constant unrest. 

I know a lot of us feel it from time to time but just because we do doesn’t mean we can let it win. I got one will do what is necessary and push on. For the moment I have stepped away from the digital world in regards to social media to breathe, gain my focus. It is easy to be caught up in drama, pointless posts, funny memes, memories, pictures, and promotions/marketing. Granted it is needed at times to just let yourself be known and seen, but as well, I need to know or find a balance and not become lost in such vain pursuits and allow my stories to truly be shared. These are my opinions. As Well, to properly write I need to allow myself to bleed more and not become hindered by affairs of the world that will lead me astray. The choices I make now or am making, affect who I will become but let tomorrow come on its own as I work for today. 

After discussing matters in my life with my dear friend, I know I must allow myself to keep moving forward, to let God take control. It is easy to say certain things but I also want my actions to speak for themselves. I don’t want to find myself thinking about my ex ever since I saw her on Facebook or even the fact of spending hours distracted looking through an Instagram feed. I want to be focused, just as I write on here, producing continuous sets of wordings that touch others, revealing who I am, the worlds ready to be revealed and the poetry that sings to the hearts of men. 

I AM…Jesus

Title could seem like I am proposing so me sort of hypocrisy. What happened to Gee_ology? Did he finally lose it and think of himself as divine? No, on the contrary, I love presenting people with who Jesus is. 

Now I have touched upon these topics before. My blog doesn’t just consist of stories or articles about my life, but as those of you who have been reading since the beginning know, I’m an apologist. I also am a biblical studies/theology student, a Christian. These topics would arrive and flow from my heart to help understand.

Now, I have had people discuss or preach to me a false Christ. They have learned to pick and choose verses to try to disprove the divinity of Christ, yet let us allow scripture to speak for itself. Let the sword speak and the word manifest.

But about the Son, he says: “God is your throne forever and ever, and the scepter of your Kingdom is the scepter of uprightness. And: “At the beginning, O Lord, you laid the foundations of the earth, and the heavens are the works of your hands. (Hebrews 1:8-10, ref. Psalm 102:25-27 speaking of Jehovah, Yahweh. Father speaking and declaring the Son as the creator) Now they may say to me, ‘What is His name?’ What shall I say to them?” (Exodus 3:13) “God said to Moses, ‘I AM WHO I AM’; and He said, ‘Thus you shall say to the sons of Israel, “I AM has sent me to you” (Exodus 3:14) ‘I tell you the truth,’ Jesus answered, ‘before Abraham was born, I am…’ (John 8:56–59) I AM the Bread of Life (John 6:35, 41, 48, 51); I AM the Light of the World (John 8:12); I AM the Door of the Sheep (John 10:7, 9); I AM the Good Shepherd (John 10:11,14); I AM the Resurrection and the Life (John 11:25); I AM the Way, the Truth and the Life (John 14:6); and I AM the True Vine (John 15:1, 5) and his name shall be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. (Isaiah 9:6)

Now I could keep going on. I could even associate how the spirit, yet I felt compelled to write this more so to help those in the faith come to clear understanding. I’m Christianity we don’t simply just say Jesus is God, no, we believe and know him to be. Just as scholars can reveal that the early church proclaimed him as Lord and saviour. 

Eve of the Morrow

My Eve….though in the past I was pursuing musings I thought would fill my need. Conceived by notions that all I had to do was sleep. Yes, beside a body not of my own, though the warmth touches my soul. Sensing the senses mentioning I feel this person is my own. But there they go. Rejections met with objections from those turning away as clung to attention. Returning to cold heart, shattered and bruised as I faced my imperfection. Where am I to go? Hearing poets speak with ease how another is home. Hearing players take shots and pass balls, in mention of the game, I guess I didnt properly play, so I became cheated on. Funny, how I would see them pick up and I trail her, though they let go. So I began to wonder, was the problem me….me…the man who spoke eloquent words and rumored to have a count that doubled palms? Not realizing that I became an image that I could no longer recognize. Skies shifting and my narcissism became revealing, yelling out, surprise, we’re victims. But no, wait….love…yes, no, no, yes, respect? Trust? Time? Change? Balance? Chasing after an idea with no clear direction until love was truly found. Did I stop and become consumed? Sounds escaping my lips trying to form words with a heart that skips. Beginning to see the focus, I turned to promises of today and tomorrow remaining its own. Running the race in wait, seeing you slip past me in haste, I pursue you to walk hand in hand. Forgive me for not catching up to you before. But my dear, you are worth the wait. See me as a man, filled with flaws and love, Rooted in the rock, let us grow.

Bring Me Close

Blackest soul, darkest tone. Riding the river styx, paying the token to charon. Broken, unspoken promises soaking in oceans. Moments revealing potent omens. Interwoven frozen heart with focus choking. Hoping to transcend beyond ends. Escaping sentences of prisons. Prisms in metrical means to measure rulers. Ruling to G-O, monopolies in policies. atrocities construed to breed hostilities in futures. Sooner is marked in treason with reason. Apart, not a part of the world, restoring pieces. Speak to me…Jesus. Give me hope amongst such times. Radiance amongst stars, eternal sign. Let the light shine, I’m yours…bring me close…

My Love, Know Love

I feel at times as if I’m not worthy or I don’t deserve your words…I am completely open to you without any secrets. Ask me and I shall speak from such a heart that has been restored. What charge can be made for what I feel for you? You tell me I am the fire but you my dear are like the rising Phoenix. In a time where I thought love was lost, the ashes of my trials burned once again by your embrace. I see your past and fault and my body shakes because I wish not to be the cause of any pain. You are a queen and rightfully so I treat you as one. O how men have swayed and not revealed what is love but my dear, lest you be caught in your own quarrels, find me look back and reflect your beauty. How long has time kept me from feeling such warm embrace? My Father welcoming me to communicate what I know to be true. You are indeed a treasure and I shall venture the seven seas though sins-badly trying to take hold. Forgive me for any steps I let you take upon improper ventures. I want to walk beside you till my Father returns me beside his presence. My love, I care not for empty promises but hear my oath of absolute certainty, my heart is warmed not only by the love of the Spirit but as well your own. And though I do not need you…I want you…call me selfish or blinded…but with faith I cry…I love you with all my soul…

Followers and Servants of Christ

Christians, In name only?

​I’ve heard and seen it many times before; “Christian” is a title so loosely used. Given to identify many, though few can reveal its meaning. One where hypocrisy follows suit while it is not so and many other Gospels are promoted or taught but is not of God. The reality is the man who claims to be Christian, proud in himself as to forget others, is but a man who professes but is not of Christ. It is more than attending churches or having the title. Sitting in a garage does not make you a car. Biblically speaking, if we were to compare Christianity as it is labeled and seen, many would fall short to its standard. But what can be said of a Christian, is he not one who believes and follows Christ? To solely say one believes in him, God, is not enough. On the contrary, belief in God does not mean one is saved or born again.

Under Laws?

So then many ask what should be done and I shall say as scripture reveals, we ultimately do nothing for in and by Christ we have been saved. Yet, the commandments are seen, to love God and love thy neighbor. In loving God we are known by God, to love God means we obey him. One can try to dissuade and claim we must abide to the requirements of the old law but in Christ the law has passed but it does not mean that it has lost its values. The laws were made to help his people at the time but because of Christ we now abide under him. Just because we are not bond by the laws does not give us excuse to sin. 

Loving Others

In loving our neighbor, it comes with the heart of God bestowed unto us. The true Christian loves without condition or for gain but is willing to sacrifice and give to his brother or sister. We are able to bear one another and rebuke, bringing others back from their sin as members of the body and bride of Christ. Not inflated by our egos because we are his chosen people nor to allow the things of this world to separate us from He who is enough. 

New Creation

The Christian has denied himself and carries his cross. Tossing away his old notions and repenting, he begins to allow the Spirit to work within him and change him to the image of Christ; Being a light bearer and witness to the glory of God. He is able to defend his beliefs with love and humility, though tested. He has become a new creation and given a heart of flesh not of stone. 

Strengthened in Christ

The Christian acts not religious but knows traditions followed to give worship to the Father. He is not weak but is given strength by the Spirit. As he as well knows, he does not require the happiness sought in this world but finds joy in Christ. Though he knows as well that tribulations may arise and his nature may cause moments of brokenness, the Lord calls and restores. He boasts not in himself but in the Lord who he gives all praise. As one who can say or call himself, Christian, I speak as to not have people think I am the standing marker. I am but a man and speak or write with the same words directed and taught in scripture. To live is Christ and die is gain. Thus, we are born again.

Inner belief

Yes, there will be moments you will hate yourself. Hate the things you have done or are doing. But guess what? Know who you are and are becoming. They tell you, you are meant for so much more, but this isn’t just a saying, you really need to believe that. 

The world will try to shape you and have you believing certain things have to be a certain way but listen, abide in truth and learn to see the beauty in yourself and others. 

As a writer, it is a struggle at times, to write words that will reach hearts, but in essence, I learned that it wasn’t about what I can say or write but what I truly wanted to share. Writing is a huge part of not only what I do but who I am. I may hate my own writing and consider myself the worst writer but that doesn’t stop me; in knowing I was meant to write, I continue. 

Believe in yourself and also be able to grow in who you are. Just as I have learned to be a light so I know as well your name is essential in growth, I am Lucius A. Wulfe a light placed on a hill to guide others lost at sea.