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Spectrum

Colors coming in waves.

Reaching reaches reached past brain waves.

Going beyond imagination.

Bringing vivid illustrations.

Shadows of what wants to be revealed.

Conveyed to display what is real.

Feelings in a motion of thoughts.

The colors of the universe found in us.

Shining in the night.

The promise of the light.

Just Stand

We have all heard this saying before, “stand out”. As an artist, I have discovered that from every corner of the globe, people keep saying to build your brand, your voice, your signature, to allow your legacy to be defined by what you bring to the table. This is in part true but what I have also learned is that it can limit you.

We are all trying to find our identity in this world. We see a style and try to adapt to it, try to be a part of the culture or whatever is around you. Just because of something influencing you doesn’t necessarily mean you will adopt it. We are ” finding” ourselves. This being said, we are not subjected to “stand out”. Let’s all face it right here, now, each one of us will not be rich, get a million dollar book deal, be recognized in the blogger’s hall of fame, and etc. Some people are needed to be that happy garbage man or delivery guy and in reality, the world is a moving body of people, a collective.

I’m an artist, specifically a writer, poet, and your average day human being. I have cravings, desires, and etc but will all of them be met in my lifespan, probably not. Yet I will not let that phase me. I will continue to write because it is something I love and I will paint because it is something that I feel helps me express what I feel or think. Some people won’t gravitate to what I like or even what I do and guess what? That’s fine with me. I understand though that the way I perceive things or convey something will always be different. 2 people can come up with the same idea but it will never be the same story or concept (unless plagiarized of course).

The reason I am writing this post is that I feel like people lose a sense of creativity or they force something that shouldn’t be forced. Just write the story you wish to write or paint the painting you want to wait, sing the songs you want to sing.

Checkmate

You feel all possible moves have been made and you are surrounded by impossible odds against you that you thought weren’t possible. What you thought could never happen, happens. Maybe your world is turned upside down, either way, you’re not alone.

I can’t really explain what has been going on in my life as of yet. I’ve spent the last few months growing as a man. I could say without a doubt I’m in a serious relationship and that I continue to grow. I have learned to combine my gifts and display it with ease. I have become even more confident in my own abilities and who I am as a person.

It is tough, this thing we call life, I actually could agree that it is harder the older you get. I honestly could not picture my life being the way it is now but I’m grateful that I have stepped into these moments. Though I am not where I want to be, I feel like I’m where I need to be.

Many people, including myself, push ourselves way beyond what is required to reach some plateau. We want to climb the highest mountains. I recently took my vacation and as I stood behind the window in my hotel room, on the 10th floor, I had a glimpse of what life would be like if I followed certain paths in life. Reflecting on my life now, I could say that for the longest I have felt like I am in the last stretch, just surviving. Checkmated.

Though all of this being said, it is like I have stated, I am where I need to be. I can only keep going, never giving up. I continue to write every day and will try to have my collection of work published in some format. I will continue to showcase my art and hope people would encourage or support me, like it and buy it, etc. I’m an artist that wishes to convey a message through the medium of abstract art, poetry, and stories. This is who I am and I will not stop, even a king must make a move and fight, this isn’t a game anyways, this is life.

Posting Blank

For some reason, unbeknown to myself, my recent posts are not posting. I can see the title and the entry, but no luck coming through. I’ve been using Microsoft Word and jotter pad app, then I would copy and paste here. Yet to no avail.

I’ve recently entered a vacation, meaning that this is the time I have available to fix and upgrade my blog. I’m actually trying to see if I could separate my poetry unto a different page than my home page. Though I do wish to keep all the latest posts appearing, I would a place where people could just gather them all and read.

In regards to my poetry as well, looking for any advice to get it collected and creating poetry book. I’ve worked on in design and have been contemplating on making my own book, posting it on Amazon, but we will see. Being only one year into poetry, 2 as a writer, I am learning as I go. Feel free to comment or message me if you have experience.

This entry is simply to say that I haven’t died. Jokes aside. I am writing still, but as I have stated, it comes out blank. Hopefully, this will not be a reoccurring issue.

Keep Going!

You wake up, get dressed and go on to your 9 to 5, maybe school first and then an overnight shift, second job, etc. The cycle becomes a bad nightmare, a reoccurring nightmare you wish to escape from. Maybe you will continue to buy those lottery tickets, scratch offs, and hit it big. Maybe you will get a call that a wealthy family member passed away and you inherited a fortune. Maybe but then again, more than likely, not.

I remember when I first began my blog, 24 years old with no clue. The writing was the passion and my sole purpose. Every single day I wrote elaborate stories, articles, and etc just to become recognized, have an audience. Almost 2 years since I first started calling myself a writer. A good portion of my life invested in jobs I am grateful to have had to help me pay expenses but for the most part, despised due to the nature of them. I grew to be someone I swore I would never become.

We have all had big dreams, some bigger than others, yet now as I watch the world unfold I’ve begun to truly see the benefits of never giving up.

I remember someone once told me that life was not meant for the dreamers but those who make things happen. It’s funny hearing or reading how successful people tell you how to become successful. Something we forget to consider is that people are different. A circumstance or opportunity will present itself only to one individual to help them realize who they are. Am I shutting down peoples dreams? By no means. I am merely trying to wake some people up from the delusion you see on Instagram, Facebook, and youtube with those motivational speakers telling you “how” to do things or why instead of reinforcing themselves and allow people to learn and grow for themselves. Sounds odd doesn’t it, here I am telling people to keep pushing and going at times but the reality is that you won’t listen to me unless you believe it yourself.

I’m an artist trying to get my name out there. A writer with no brand other than this blog and my art. I’ve been breaking the limitations I once had and am pushing myself past what I thought possible. I am painting abstract now, perfecting my poetry and sharpening my skills as a writer. Now, of course, I have much to learn but I still keep going because I know that I love writing and growing.

I may not be the next Shakespeare, da Vinci and etc but I am who I am and my name means more to me than anyone can judge me for. I don’t do what I do for an audience but because I love to do it. I know my value and if others recognize and support me for it then, by all means, I appreciate it all and will support them as well.

This may have been longer but this had to be written. I’ve seen a world ravaged by anxiety and depression, even within myself. But I keep going and I also present to others to do the same. Life was not made to try to reach to a point at all times but to truly find who you are, accept it, share it with others, and love, truly love. I believe this is the ultimate form of success, not what you can gain from the world but what you can give to it. This is Geeology just sharing another message. Much love and be blessed all.