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You Are Gold.

Don’t fear failure. You can always desire for the results or focus on the outcome. What you forget is what or how you will get to where you want to be. Learn and embrace your mistakes, your failure, because then you will truly grow. There will be many times you fall but guess what? You shall rise again as scripture speaks about, that a righteous man can fall seven times but rises again (Proverbs 24:16).

Your faith is in the certainty of who God is making you to be, not who you are already, you’re a work in progress. “Authentic faith is not believing in God but believing God. Taking God and His word and obediently following Him, Regardless of the outcome…”- Art Azurdia.

Remember that though you participate in this world set your mind in what is above. Remember His promises and know that you have been set apart, loved, and led to a new life, in Him, with Him, through Him, for Him. God allows you to grow by burning and building on your weaknesses, testing your faith like gold through fire (1 Peter 1:7). Jesus said, “It is finished”, as well as saying, “follow me”, trust in God and grow as you live, work and let your faith be built on a firm foundation. You are gold.

I’m Ready

“I was born ready! ”

We have all heard or said that quote. Amidst countless of reasons we present a state in which we believe we can overcome or endure.  Now what usually happens is that things may not turn out the way we envision.  Nonetheless, we are prepared,  even if we may not fully agree.  

My life has taken quite a turn, from being troubled by my depression and anxiety, to God fully taking control,  once again.  I honestly feel good and my mindset has shifted. 

I tend to discuss a shifting or a change that occurs in us.  I’ve learned through this recent transformation that I held to the notion in which most of us hold to, “better me”. Sometimes we tend to believe that attaining something, being someone,  or even being with someone will change us,  make us better. What if I was to tell you that no matter what is on this green Earth we won’t be a better version of ourselves. 

Before you grab the pitchforks and hunt me down, hear me out.  I hold to a biblical worldview,  I’m Christian so I hope that comes across clearly to those who do not know me or my writing.  All this being said, we are not perfect  nor should we ever cling to the idea of perfection, if it isn’t Christ. We are all sinners and because of our nature, sin entering us,  nothing we do or say, have,  will alter this.  Paul spoke about it in scripture, apart from God,  we will fail,  and only God can save /change us. 

God wants us to be image bearers.  When the Holy Spirit enters us and dwells within,  we begin to bear the fruits,  reflecting Christ. We are given a new heart and a new spirit.  Things we did or how we are, radically alters and just as He is holy,  we pursue to be it as well. 

We’ve tried it already, we worked for x amount of years, graduated college, acheieved that goal, started a diet,  but did it really change who we are? It might have changed an outcome or surrounding but ultimately did it change us. The problem we haven’t realized is that true change is internal, it is a soul and heart change,  our perceptions and that in turn breeds true transformation. 

I’ve seen people discuss how they will go on a diet and then fail within a week.  I’ve seen people struggle with pornography for years. What needs to happen is a true heart shifting and mentality.  This I’ve learned can only be done by God. Now I’m not saying it isn’t possible for anyone to truly change. We have it in us to change but without He who is life,  it becomes a vain, egocentric pursuit. We will preach about what we did and etc.  You will hear motivational people discuss that you need to be a better you, while still developing a plan that may have worked for them but does not benefit you.  We each have our own path to follow and purpose. 

So then I’ve come to realize that I am truly ready now.  Before I was my own limitation,  I was in the way.  It doesn’t mean that I will stop being myself but that I will be who I was intended on being.  It is by the grace of God through faith in Jesus that I am alive and completely different than who I was.  I could have and should have been dead long ago, in my trespasses of sin and so forth. So as a way to help others understand this I challenge everyone who reads this to see where their heart is,  are you really ready for change or will you continuously hold to being born ready,  still waiting to be a “better” you. 

Being A Man


I’ve heard it all before. The questions arising as if I’m seeking the answers once again. Before it all may sound confusing I’m talking about being a man. 

Some can ask me, “Did I really do it, crack the code?”. There isn’t a “code” to be cracked. The common issue I’ve come to realize that has plagued us men is that we have allowed the world to define who we are.

God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them. (Gen. 1:27)

In Genesis, God reveals to us that He made man in his image. We’ve been allowed to embody the same characteristics of God; To feel, love, and etc. Some can argue and say we were not completely human as we ate from the tree, allowing us to know good and evil. Reality is, the dire consequence of that moment bred sin, evil into the world, our connection to walk with God lost, that is til Jesus. 

From as early as I can remember, I’ve been told that I wouldn’t be a man until x reasons. Until I was able to drive, drink, had sex, was 18, could vote, had a job, bought a car, bought a house, had a family, and etc. As I grew, I kept checking off the qualifications and always asked myself the simple question, am I a man? 

People can tell me that they know when, yet again, They hold to what someone defined for them. It isn’t like one day we wake up and say, “Hey, I’m no longer a boy!”. Puberty can hit us and still, people will say that girls mature faster. In my life I had to mature dramatically due to being homeless and the effects of my choices, the street life and etc. So then does all of that qualifies me as being a man? No. Does being 26 years old guarantee I’m a man? No.

Throughout my years I’ve seen that being a man can only truly be determined by 3 things. Who we are in Christ, who we are to ourselves, and to others.

Now some can debate and dismiss this notion that we are determined by who we are in Christ, I am Christian of course, so a non believer will simply say that their manhood is not defined by a fantasy. Yet to my point, Christ, who was a man that lived and breathed, historically was said to have lived a blameless, perfect life, so even if one does not believe in his divinity, can still come to the realization that he is the standard we are to meet. For those in the faith, Christ is not only the example we follow but also the God who shaped us in his image, to reflect who He is. 

“Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor stands in the path of sinners, nor sits in the seat of the scornful; But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and in His law he meditates day and night. He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season, whose leaf also shall not wither; and whatever he does shall prosper.” (Psalm 1:1-3)

Our hope is not only found in Christ but our manhood. Christ has foreseen who we are and has set us out to tend to His work, to obey and live the godly life.

“Then the Lord God took the man and put him in the garden of Eden to tend and keep it.” (Gen. 2:15)

When it comes to who we are to ourselves it is about learning self-love as well being honest with oneself. It is easy to try to go to the gym or even put in work for a new look, car, etc. But why do you do those things? Do we lie to ourselves to attain something and if so, would it truly benefit is or help inflate our ego? To know who we are is to learn to respect ourselves as much as others. Sex will not make you a man, No matter how many females you do it with. Being in a relationship or getting married won’t either. To learn your flaws, work on them and improve, this is what allows us to grow. We are not perfect and when we learn to accept who we are, what our limits are, and etc, we come closer to the truth.

Who we are to others also plays a key role in determining our manhood. Are you a husband who leads as well as being led? Are you a hard worker who puts in his full effort in all that you do. We have been throughout time seen as the “strong”, the courageous, as is spoken about in scripture to be that way. As well, We are not just told to be presented as warriors but also to be as kings, lovers, and teachers. We must love and respect others and be firm in truth and love. This is why men take to arms to protect peace or to liberate others, Why some truly serve others as well. Men or I should say a true man, understands that he is part of something more than himself and in knowing this, he works to help make it better or stronger. 

In today’s age we have instead allowed ourselves to a villian or act like a victim. Men are seen as weak when emotions are shown. In the race for equality between genders roles may have flipped, who brings the bread in, but don’t be discouraged and think it makes you less than a man. Take it from someone who has gone down the list, I didn’t really grasp the significance of what it meant being a man as well as trying to figure out what to do since I knew I was one. Boys eventually grow up and decisions will be made that will not only impact you but others, you must be ready for that. You will have sex and if not careful, you will have a child, you must understand the consequences and be able to handle them as they come. Being a man is being someone who acknowledges all of this and does not wait idly by. 

This post isn’t just to help those men who believe in the illusion the world has created for us. Wasn’t to help you fully grasp what being a man is either but a wake up call to help you reflect in who you are in Christ, yourself and others. What needs to change, why do you need to change? From man to man and to any women that read this and wish to pass it along to the men, by all means. This is Gee_ology signing out, be blessed all.

Acting Love

Let’s not throw dirt under the rug. Let’s put everything out there on the plate. It is better to be honest and lead by example than being seen as one who just talks the talk and even though you can’t physically see me, walk the walk.

I’m Christian, sorry to burst your bubble of you expected more or less. I honestly don’t have to apologize and I’m not going to “push” my beliefs on anyone. A lot of what I write will reflect my beliefs though.

Now, to the topic at hand. I’ve been busy from but for the most part, like I stated before, I’ve been reflecting my life. I can easily say that I’m Christian but the real question is, are my fruits beating the reality of what I claim to be?

Being a 26 year old male is not easy in this world. Guys are stereotyped and judges by our race or past. I’m Dominican and Chinese so I usually fall into the category of being a party animal, drunk, player/womanizer, or just reserved. Yet, I don’t fit into any of the occasional norms.

I’m still single since my last relationship which is coming to 2 years. I haven’t had sex in about that same allotted time and even though I’ve tried to be abstinent we all know as human beings, temptation can strike, like with pornography. I’m not a saint nor claim to be one. But I do know I rather not engage intimately with someone unless I’m in love and heading towards marriage. I honestly can’t do it anymore. The games or body hopping people do nowadays to what I used to do during my early years. I haven’t really had a huge body count (saying it creeps me out) but I do know I’ve only ever truly felt I was making love with one person out of the few. Let’s lay it out there, I’m a sex addict, an ex alcoholic, and unstable person who has the worst kind of OCD. As apart to most people with OCD, I have violent or sexual images pervade my mind along with the usual compulsive thoughts, cleanliness, ticks and etc.

Now, when I say unbalanced I mean I can jump from being eccentric to completely shutting down on you. My emotions will be almost non-existent and it honestly bothers me.

People think that as a Christian we are supposed to be these angelic people who are sin free now. Now, yes, Christ paid the penalty and the spirit is working within us to shape us in the image of Christ and we obey God; We also know that the flesh draws us to want to call prey to our desires.

I’ve reduced the amount of alcohol I consume to only special events and just enough to not allow myself to be tipsy. I’ve prayed and grown to see what affects my lust. I’ve also promised God I would be abstinent till marriage. Now I may be living what is perceived a celibate life now but I do so until I know I am ready to pursue or God allows me to see who he has prepared for me. At times we focus on waiting and not realizing God wants us to act and I intend to discern.

The reality is that the Christi an life is not easy. The world can influence us. The songs we listen to, shows we watch, people we are around. We can be a light in the darkness but remember with every storm the fire can be overcome if not covered sufficiently.

I advise all my brothers and sisters in the faith as well as myself, when I look back at this post. Trust in God. Be led in love and let love be your guide, to love is the greatest of gifts and the ultimate sacrifice, to love is to act and in the act We reveal who we are and meant to be. God bless you all. Gee_ology out.

In Memory

They never tell you how short life is. Today my friend texted me and told me that R.C. Sproul died. Now personally I never knew the man but one thing is for certain is that, he impacted me tremendously in my life.

If you dont know by now, I consider myself a Christian apologist. I’ve delved into theological debates and even written articles about the Faith and God. Through my journey or research, I’ve found that there have been men and women that God has placed that have caused me to become inspired and truly learn from.

With the amazing ability of the internet, though I may bash it at times, I’ve been blessed to hear and learn from many influential people. R.C. Sproul was one of those people and even now, I know his messages and expression of faith will impact many in the years to come. I pray sincerely that his family may draw closer and rejoice in knowing that he is with the Lord he served diligently for years, and if they feel sadness as I’m sure they do, may they be comforted.

This brings me to the truth of the matter, time is truly so short. A lot can happen in a year and a day. We look back at times and notice that those who stood beside us No ponger are with us, even if they may not have passed in life, from our lives, they are no longer connected at times. This is why I say that in memory of all who are with us let us be truly grateful for those who are with us, never forget those who changed us and truly, let us understand that people are treasures that are greater than any of what we can gain that the Lord allows us to share with Him during our time on Earth.

Followers and Servants of Christ

Christians, In name only?

I’ve heard and seen it many times before; “Christian” is a title so loosely used. Given to identify many, though few can reveal its meaning. One where hypocrisy follows suit while it is not so and many other Gospels are promoted or taught but is not of God. The reality is the man who claims to be Christian, proud in himself as to forget others, is but a man who professes but is not of Christ. It is more than attending churches or having the title. Sitting in a garage does not make you a car. Biblically speaking, if we were to compare Christianity as it is labeled and seen, many would fall short to its standard. But what can be said of a Christian, is he not one who believes and follows Christ? To solely say one believes in him, God, is not enough. On the contrary, belief in God does not mean one is saved or born again.

Under Laws?

So then many ask what should be done and I shall say as scripture reveals, we ultimately do nothing for in and by Christ we have been saved. Yet, the commandments are seen, to love God and love thy neighbor. In loving God we are known by God, to love God means we obey him. One can try to dissuade and claim we must abide to the requirements of the old law but in Christ the law has passed but it does not mean that it has lost its values. The laws were made to help his people at the time but because of Christ we now abide under him. Just because we are not bond by the laws does not give us excuse to sin.

Loving Others

In loving our neighbor, it comes with the heart of God bestowed unto us. The true Christian loves without condition or for gain but is willing to sacrifice and give to his brother or sister. We are able to bear one another and rebuke, bringing others back from their sin as members of the body and bride of Christ. Not inflated by our egos because we are his chosen people nor to allow the things of this world to separate us from He who is enough.

New Creation

The Christian has denied himself and carries his cross. Tossing away his old notions and repenting, he begins to allow the Spirit to work within him and change him to the image of Christ; Being a light bearer and witness to the glory of God. He is able to defend his beliefs with love and humility, though tested. He has become a new creation and given a heart of flesh not of stone.

Strengthened in Christ

The Christian acts not religious but knows traditions followed to give worship to the Father. He is not weak but is given strength by the Spirit. As he as well knows, he does not require the happiness sought in this world but finds joy in Christ. Though he knows as well that tribulations may arise and his nature may cause moments of brokenness, the Lord calls and restores. He boasts not in himself but in the Lord who he gives all praise. As one who can say or call himself, Christian, I speak as to not have people think I am the standing marker. I am but a man and speak or write with the same words directed and taught in scripture. To live is Christ and die is gain. Thus, we are born again.

Understanding Christianity

Understand this, I don’t speak about God because I want to be seen as “holy”. I speak it because it is truth. I spent 8 years in the occult and magick only to be revealed the truth and repent. I spend the rest of my life, dedicated to reveal the truth, share the Gospel, my calling, to preach.
The early Christians didn’t decide to start their own religion, nor did Jesus. We don’t follow a “man”, Jesus is not Michael, not a prophet or a mere teacher. That belief came from occultic roots, the freemasonry that had their people form religions or cults to change the minds of people, they formed the Mormoms, Seventh Day Adventists, Jehovah’s Witness and etc, these in turn are not Christian. Christianity was only perceived or made to be as one as the Catholic church emerged. Reading scripture by the pope was made unlawful.
Early Christians were killed because of their beliefs. If we look at ancient texts, history, even scripture we see see how many tried to deceive people with another philosophy or dissuade even within the church. Yet God’s truth has held firm, the books in the dead sea scrolls were Gnostic not scripture. Jesus’ body was not taken, guards were placed day and night, it would take soldiers to remove them and in turn the rock that covered the tomb, and it would have been reported. Hundreds witnessed Christ, resurrected and even accounts apart from scripture state how early Christians were said to see him, live differently by repenting, helping others and worshipping Jesus, because they saw just as scripture shows, he is the Christ. They saw him as God, Thomas declared, my Lord and my God. The spirit was revealed as God, when Ananias lied to not man but to God in the books of Acts.
I can inform and tell people about all of this but that will not change people. Only God can truly change peoples hearts. I simply preach the Gospel and using my testimony, I witness and pray I could lead others to Christ. I am a man being transformed to the image of Christ. That young boy who was an athiest to the lost kid who was demonically possessed or influenced by substances to this renewed man. His kingdom is coming soon and we must repent and believe in Jesus because only through him can we have life. No one can come to the Father but through him and if at any time anyone is unsure or has questions upon that which I speak I can help you understand. We are all in this together brothers and sisters and I love you all dearly.

Speaking with Reason

Listen, brothers, sisters, we don’t speak or write foolish things upon our claims as Christians in saying we follow Jesus, the truth. Most will derive there understanding as follows: Jesus was either a fool, liar, a good teacher, or who he said he was, the son of God. It is historically inaccurate to say he never existed, even apart of scripture it can be revealed. It is wrong to state he was a fool for he spoke with knowledge and truth of what was known in that age, even coming to Pilate and revealing he was without guilt. One can say he was a good teacher but must also understand the miracles he allowed to come to pass, healing the sick, raising the dead. No man has or will ever do what Jesus has done. Now to say or come to the conclusion that he is who he said he was, the son of God, something is revealed to you when you understand this.

Why were the early Christians willing to die for following Jesus? It is even spoken about outside of scripture how the “Christians” lived differently, helping the poor, living a way apart from sin, repenting, helping one another, and worshiping Jesus for they believed him to be raised from the dead. Raised from the dead. That in itself was a bold claim and yet we also see Paul declaring that if no one believed his testimony to ask those hundreds of people who did see the Christ resurrected. He is the son of God, “before Abraham was, ‘I Am’, the first and the last”. The one who said, I and the Father are one, the Jews knew at the time what he was declaring. “My Lord and my God”, he did not refute or disallow worship to him. The Father spoke saying, “even the angels worship him”, all was given to him, heaven and Earth. People question the trinity or Jesus, but our finite minds will never truly comprehend.

There is one God: The Father, Son, and Holy Spirit are distinct Persons. The Bible speaks of the Father as God (Philippians 1:2), Jesus as God (Titus 2:13), and the Holy Spirit as God (Acts 5:3–4). But when it is revealed and we are allowed to grasp the supremacy of Christ, the reality of God, we are held in awe. Stand firm in your beliefs. Christianity is not religion, it is not a way of works though we understand faith without works is dead. We are not saved by our own accord for God has predestined us as the elect, we understand we are saved by grace through faith. Keep running the race. Don’t be swayed by false doctrines or high sounding philosophies. Scripture has stood the test of time and provided historical authenticity. Science doesn’t dispute the bible, nor does history. Research and study. Seek the Lord and he shall reveal all through his wisdom. Let our faith stand amidst the trials and let us live proclaiming his kingdom come, will be done. Leading many towards the truth, in Jesus’ name, Amen.

Another Day To Write

To all those that follow me, support me, I consider friends. Hear me out or take a moment to read. You may see me posting on here, depending which site you read this from, but understand who I am, why I am on here. I am but a man, 25 years old and though it is young I’ve experienced much in my life. I am not proud of my past and though I may appear like I have life together, better, I don’t. I don’t know the future. I can talk about and give advice about relationships, love, but I’ve broken relationships, played the villian, broke hearts, was self centered, loved and lost, regretted. I have a problem trusting people and if I open up it is because now, my life is a living testimony.

I’m not religious, in fact, I despise religion. I’m Christian. It is not because I was raised or “brainwashed” like cults. I was an athiest, then my curiousity in love with science found me to study mysticism, the occult, magick, like my grandfather. I would hear the stories from my Father and it incited my curiousity. From that I was allowed to see the truth and light of God. All my questions were answered by God. Even amidst the religions I looked into, the “wisdom” and knowledge I gained, God was the answer. I’ve always tried to seek it in things, peace, truth, love, and never was content. I’ve lost friends, I’ve lost loved ones. What I’m trying to say or write is this: life is so short. We spend hours studying to work jobs we might not like, we spend our time doing irrelevant things, we forget the simplicities or how intricately complex this life is.

We allow this world were suppose to take care of rot with our choices and the degradation of humanity continues as we focus on our egos. I can speak about it for hours but it is true. No posts or likes will stop what is happening in the world or simple words spoken or written, only action. Even so on my knees and a crying plea for us to reevaluate life. We need to be changed. I don’t speak to boast on my merits or puff up in my knowledge over things but out of love. I speak to help others understand the truth. If I speak about God it is because I wish to share how be has changed me and revealed who he is. If I speak against or expose something it is to reveal the lies we have been lead to believe. Amongst the hours spent researching, day and night. If I write or talk about love it is because I’ve experienced true love and know its beauty in entirety, though I know my time may or may not come being single now, value the person, the blessing God has placed before you, you may never know when it will end.

Truly I tell you, though you may only hear or read what I write from when you last saw me, I’ve changed. God is working in me and leading me amidst the storm and war. There is a war being fought for eternity, this world will pass away in time. All I can do is live a life in reflection to Christ and reveal the Gospel. That God rich in mercy though we were dead in our sins by the transgression of Adam, passed down, were allowed to live. How so, by God himself taking the form of a man, taking the penalty of sin, bearing the weight and dying for us. But even more, resurrecting to show he conquers death so that in he who believes in him, repent of their sins, turns to God, obeying his word, leading others in truth, in love, shave reside with him and have life. God came to save us. Not by our works but saved by grace through faith. This is the gospel. In him dwells peace, truth, life. I cannot tell you how to live your lives, I can only be as an example. Be blessed.

The Divide or A Body?

I was asked once before why is their so much division in the church. Let me be clear as Paul was clear. 4For when one says, “I follow Paul,” and another, “I follow Apollos,” are you not being merely human?5What then is Apollos? What is Paul? Servants through whom you believed, as the Lord assigned to each. 6I planted, Apollos watered, but God gave the growth. 7So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God who gives the growth(1 Corinthians 3:4-7). This can be seen through the denominations of the church. Just the same, “Christians” who profess with their mouths but not their lives. Now again, within denominations some have a difference in opinion about certain topics such as pre tribulation, post tribulation rapture, others about holidays and etc.

Now to properly state or see that one is Christian is by the bases of the belief. Sola scriptura, the bible being God’s word. Belief in God as creator that God is one, but also understanding the trinity is laid out in scripture, three persons, each holy, each with their own purpose in subordination, all God, not three God’s but one. Belief in necessary sacrifice of Jesus while also seeing we are saved by grace through faith, not works but recognizing faith produces works, for faith without works is dead. It is a view and in knowing God has allowed us to be saved by his work not our own.

In my stand, I can state, I’m Christian, but my understanding is strictly biblical, I am an apologist in the faith and for the most part my understanding leans more to a calvinist/reformed view but not entirely. I do believe in post tribulation rapture. I don’t celebrate holidays on a personal note because I see everyday for the Lord, but just as Paul exclaimed, there will be some who set a day as Holy and that is fine but also be aware of the customs used or how you do it, research it. Though I can say I would exchange gifts on Christmas but it is as a sign of respect or to show love, even if there’s a day set, I would gift whenever and however, regardless of date. Just the same like I stated before, there are many who claim they are Christian or say they believe in God but just claiming and “believing” does not mean you are born again or saved. As well, there are cults or factions who claim they are Christian but are not, mormons and etc.

The division people claim to see or see, is for the most part, American Christianity. Outside of the states it would seem one who calls themselves Christian are persecuted, live lives fully for God, and etc. We toss the title around to make us seem righteous. We’re not perfect. Just the same, there are those who lead others astray, false teachers, and many stray from the faith. We are the church, the people, and though it may appear to be divided, it is not. But as well we help others see the truth and lead them back to fellowship if they are astray. Though you may see “denominations” we believe in the core understanding and teaching of scripture. We are the body, each a different part, but coming together as a whole, used differently to glorify God, the church. Don’t be so quick to say we are divided or think differently because of one who claims their Christian, let their fruits be shown by their life.